मानस Mānas مانس (@[email protected])

September 2024 This month has been by far the worst since I completed the tasks of re-humanization and (re)education in 2022. The month started with what I thought was an innocuous post about a meaningful experience in my life from 2009. What followed was unexpected. A form of toxicity which I have experienced many times before, and which has always led me to dehumanization, emerged and that caused severe stress and distress. I spent about a week experiencing terrible sleep. I would find myself experiencing endless and awful intrusive thoughts. There were many days and nights where I was forced to meditate throughout. During these meditations I would face a litany of racists that would force something or another uncomfortable to be experienced by my mind. It was a thoroughly uncomfortable experience. I have experienced this pattern of abuse many times before where whites manifest hatred and generate toxicity towards a target. This hatred and negativity causes their target's sleep to be affected in a major way at an extreme level. Every time previously where I have experienced this, it has always been as a consequence to experiencing and attempting to call out racism. The dukkha always follows the same patterns of symptoms, and this leads me to believe that this is part of an advanced, modern genocide which operates through the capacity of democratic institutions for abuse. The toxicity, hatred, and negativity towards the target causes sleep deprivation to develop after repeated nights of inadequate quality sleep. There is no recourse here when racism is involved and so the only option is to visit a doctor, a visit motivated purely on account of racism. The doctor will prescribe pharmaceuticals and these will mask the most major and immediate symptoms, which happen to be the symptoms which affect the individual's ability/capacity for work. Mental healthcare as implemented here is ineffective and thus not worth mentioning at all.