I temporarily conducted an orchestra for a month while the conductor was ill. When he passed away I said I couldn't take over full time, so the orchestra disbanded.

In May I quit the community orchestra I'd been conducting for nearly two years, causing them to disband too. It was initially because of the few members turning up to rehearsal but now the relief of not having to do it and all the preparation involved, has made me realise I don't particularly like conducting.

Now I've had another orchestra ask if I'll be musical director (for the second time) because the current one wants to retire. This one's big and well established, 70+ members.

I'm going to say no, because while everyone seems to think I'm good at it, I don't enjoy it, especially the amount of work that goes into it when not doing the actual conducting.

Am I becoming the killer of local orchestras by not wanting to do something that I'm apparently pretty good at, but don't enjoy?