Do you ever feel "creatively antsy"? It's that giddy feeling of inspiration and motivation but you have nowhere to direct it to. For me it always manifests as a nervous restlessness. It can be both enjoyable and frustrating at the same time. Let me give you an example:
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A couple of weeks ago, when I felt especially creatively antsy, I started the following projects: setting-agnostic TTRPG system without math, an administrative horror short story, D&D module for cyberpunk-esque biomods, revisiting and redesigning old game concepts I had.
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None of these projects actually went anywhere. I started a page, maybe two of random, jostled notes and then jumped to the next best thing. Tey’re all half baked attempts at directing my energy, that fizzle out after an hour or so. I used to feel guilty about doing this.
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“Why am I putting energy in these “useless” things, that don’t go anywhere concrete?”, I would ask myself. This time when I started to slip into that guilt, I caught myself. I set out to answer that question first, and then feel whatever I would feel after.
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So I take a little walk, I go to a cafe, take out my notepad, let my thoughts flow freely. I scribble gameplay ideas, doodle little monsters, write a few lines of lyrics. I got a coffee. Another one after. Now I’m getting a bit overcaffeinated and start nervously fidgeting:
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Daan | New To Narrative