Paul1576I just do not get why some people cannot be open and honest with me. It is very, very confusing.
I am not a mind reader
So giving me looks, stares, smiles without saying anything just confuses me and harms my mental health. I end up with lots of anxiety, confusion and then it goes round and round in my head and gets to me in a bad way. Its the same as when people have constantly taken the piss out of me all the time and it ends up been bullying because it really effects my life in a bad way. I can’t read minds and I find it very hard to work out exactly what on earth people are playing at by doing this kind of thing. Its like they are playing charades but not very good at it.
Why not just talk to me?
Of course the only real reason why people who do this kind of thing and decide not to talk to me is that their taking the piss and playing games with me. I hate people who play games.
Open And Honest
A normal genuine person would be open and honest with me and communicate with me. I don’t bite and I can talk. If a person isn’t open and honest with me I will just presume that you are taking the piss and playing games with me.
November Girl
I still wonder what her idea was when she and her friends started all this. I fell out with my ex and then it all started with looks and questions. If they had done nothing then none of the problems of the last year and three months or so would have happened. If she had been honest with me and told me why she was looking at me and why her friends were asking all the questions then we could have talked about it sensibly like two adults. She knew and her friends knew about how hard my life was at the time with my mum having cancer and how I had fallen out and left the ex and moved back in with my mum, so why the games? I mean what on earth happened? One minute, one day, one week November girl was just a girl I saw sometimes who seemed nice and that was all and the next minute, day, week I was being watched my her and her friends. They didn’t like me going and talking to any other girls either, so what gives? What was this game-plan?
As soon as I decided that I liked a women who wasn’t November girl – that’s when the problems began. Was their lie spreading and getting all these girls to stare at me a payback because I liked another women that wasn’t her? I mean November girl was never honest with me and never talked to me, she just looked at me all the time and stared and I never once told her that I liked her in any way.
The women who I did like turned out to be happily married and I did talk to her and did tell her that I liked her and she was the only women I have told that I liked since November 2022. Wow this is turning out to be a very honest post in the middle of a post about honesty lol. So I got bullied just because I stopped looking back at the girl who was always staring?
So they just told everyone to stare at me causing me mental harm and confusing me just because I didn’t fit in with whatever was their game-plan?
I will never post the name of any girl I like in a blog and will only ever actually tell that person face to face which I did might I add. So all in all only one girl was ever liked by me since November 2022 and she should remember that but she clearly told me that she was happily married.
The Mentality Of Others
I think its fair to say that a number of people I see around just go around talking to others, listening to others and then what they hear also gets in their head and then they start acting oddly with me. The way people just believe lies, spread lies and never question lies is unreal. I posted a lot of crap all over my blogs just to make a blog post and yet people believe everything I write even when its just fantasy or some of anxiety driven thoughts getting all mixed up. I could post now a lie that I have turned gay and then I would get all the looks and men probably staring at me. Blogging, social media, everything online is just that, online and its not real life. My internet name of Paul1576 is just that my internet name, my brand but I do not go by the name of Paul1576 in real life. This post is just a post online with some of my thoughts on it. I do not go online to eat, drink and live my life, that is an entirely different world.
Conclusion
I prefer people to be open and honest with me and just talk to me rather than stare at me or give me signals without talking to me. November girl and her friends are just more people who effected my life in a bad way. I only liked one girl since November 2022. My blog is part of my Paul1576 brand and is not my real life. I am in my real life typing this post and that’s as real as it gets.
https://paul1576.uk/2024/02/28/all-i-ever-ask-for-is-honesty/
