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exme Nov 5, 2023

Week one of video diary behind me and it has been strange. I have a routine of recording about 10 minutes, then I watch that and record another bit afterwards.

What has been most surprising is that it seems to help me unmask. When I speak only to myself I'm pretty unmasked, and seeing & hearing my unmasked and stimming self makes me feel safe. It's not horrible and nothing bad happens. So I have unintedly unmasked publicly during this week, more than before. #ActuallyAutistic

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It's also dissociating to watch myself talking since I don't identify with my face or voice or anything. I record a bit and watch it afterwards and it's like someone else is on the screen. But since I dissociate a lot all the time I can't tell if it's good or bad. As long as I like recording, I'm going to continue.