@wEdawgg "how you behave afterwards is all on you"

I dont have control over some of the things that my body does. People tend to get pretty mad at these things I have no control over.

It's involuntary, these things that happen. I try to avoid these things but the stimulus that triggers them wont stop doing the triggering.

Screaming, cussing, self abuse, falling on the floor, numerous different stuff, nothing I want to chose to do. I try to avoid but I cant stop the triggers.

@GreenRoc then you are a victim of yourself.

Because there is something you could do you could choose to do something different, but you choose to do the same

Note: put that way… it does kinda seem like they were right to begin with if even you too are a victim of these actions.

@wEdawgg Yes, I am terrified of myself. I am terrified of what my body will do when it is stimulated with the things I dont want to be encountering.

It's hurt and ended friendships, it's hurt family, it's broken some bones of mine, and some torn ligaments, it's terrifying to live inside this body.

I cant stop triggers, because triggers are other people making certain noises and saying certain things, and many other human-made things that pose a threat to me.

I need people to understand.

@GreenRoc it seems like a lot of how you feel depends on the outside world being exactly the way you want it to be.

I would suggest really tearing apart the thoughts about why you need to control others to feel safe personally.

But about the other stuff…

triggers can be hard thing for anyone to tackle. And I wasn’t saying that you’re not allowed to have them or that they shouldn’t affect you the way that they do.

all I’m saying is how you lash out to other people is in your control.

@wEdawgg @GreenRoc roc is disabled and has ptsd.
You are ableist.

Roc this person wEdawdgg is ableist and doesn't know anything.