What does the fear of being judged by others hold you back from doing that you would otherwise do?

https://sopuli.xyz/post/2738438

What does the fear of being judged by others hold you back from doing that you would otherwise do? - Sopuli

To be fair I still do these things but only when no one is looking. Personally I love finding big puddles and then dig drains with a stick or my heel and watch the water flow. Also love to throw a piece of wood into water and then toss stones high up in the air and try hit it imagining it’s a warship I’m trying to bomb. Then also without going into details there are some pieces of clothing I would like to wear but don’t because they’re considered femine or gay.

I have an imp on my shoulder, lot of intrusive thoughts that are only funny to me. I pretend not to have them, and I’d rather just share whatever dog shit pops into my head. But I’m afraid I’d be committed.