They sprint at first, dodging down side streets and through buildings, finally slowing as the sound of pursuit fades behind them.
"You think we lost them?" Roach asks, breathing hard, still holding two blood-stained cleavers.
"Not a chance," Jim mutters. They slip into another alley, pulling their hood tighter around their face
"Good," Roach says, smile fierce
"Easy for you to say," Jim mutters, wiping their forehead. "I'm sweating my ass off here."
"Not long now," Roach says. "One way or another."
Beneath the hood, Jim grimaces.
"You think we bought them enough time?" they ask. Roach glances around the corner of the alley, pulling back abruptly when he spots two men, pistols drawn, creeping along the street.
"Only one way to find out," he says with a little shrug. Jim grins, drawing another knife as they crouch at the mouth of the alley, waiting to pounce.
Stede's heart pounds in his throat. He keeps his steps steady, measured. In tattered, grey-brown woollen trousers, a stained cotton shirt and a fisherman's cap pulled tight over his ears, he knows he's barely recognizable. He's never felt more conspicuous. He keeps his head down. Izzy, similarly attired, with a bandana wrapped around the bottom half of his face, holds his hand, pulling him along
"Come on," he'd said gruffly when he grabbed Stede's hand
He'd tugged Stede roughly into a shadowy corner of a muddy alley so they could change. He'd even smudged Stede's face with some of the muck, barely making eye contact as he did so. And then they were off.
Izzy's shoulders are stiff, his jaw tight--Stede sees it flex under the bandana as he stares at the back of Izzy's head. He'd thought at first that Izzy was annoyed with him, with the necessity of a posh idiot, as he was wont to say, slowing him down.
But his eyes... Stede watches them shift, widening a little too much, shining a little too bright.
Izzy is terrified. His hand tightens again as they step past another alley. Stede squeezes back, eyes on the shifting crowd around them, then back on Izzy's profile. Even with a bandana around his face, Stede can trace the elegant contour of his aquiline nose, can imagine the mouth beneath it, set firm, determined. Stede keeps his other hand on his pistol
He forces himself to breathe evenly, to move with no more urgency than any other drunk in the crowd. Every shadow seems to hold some hidden threat, every face a potential enemy. All that matters is getting Izzy back to the ship.
They're close now--the streets here smell of saltwater, fish guts and sick. Stede starts to recognize some of the streets around them, or at least he thinks he does. Hard to tell one den of iniquity from another, truth be told.
He wonders where Jim and Roach are, if they've started back to the ship yet. If they're safe. They round the corner, and now he's certain--he knows these streets. The Revenge is just around the corner. They've done it. Now all they have to do is--
"Shit!"
Stede's head swivels so quickly he feels his neck twinge. Jim and Roach spill out of an alley a few meters back, yelling and cursing. Jim spots him instantly--so much for his bloody disguise.
"Run!" they yell. Stede stands frozen for a moment, trying to comprehend what he's seeing. That's-- they're--
"Who in the bloody hell is that!" he squawks, pointing at the unconscious man the two of them are carrying, Jim with his feet tucked under their arms, Roach holding him firmly under the armpits as his head lolls.
"Hostage!" Roach replies, grinning manically as Stede registers yelling, the pounding of footstepts behind them. "Now, RUN!"
Stede runs, not letting go of Izzy's hand. He takes the lead, pistol drawn, shoves his way through the crowded streets, around the corner.
The Revenge stands just ahead of them, its sails slack, hull glowing in the late morning sun. It's the most beautiful sight Stede's ever seen. A man rears up in front of him, all gap-toothed grin and grasping hands, reaching out to snatch at Izzy. Stede doesn't break his stride, backhanding the man with his pistol.
He hears a grunt as the man stumbles back, blood pouring from a gash in his forehead. A few others fall back with alarmed shouts as Stede waves the gun wildly, teeth bared.
"Out of my fucking way!" he shouts. He sees Olu peer over the Revenge's railing, sees him shout to the rest of the crew, and then they're tearing up the gangplank. Roach and Jim toss their hostage to the side--he hits the deck like a sack of potatoes as they pull up the gangplank.
"Mister Buttons, get us under way immediately!" Stede shouts. A pistol shot sounds from below. He moves without thinking, tackling Izzy to the deck. Feet thud as the crew rushes about, returning fire, making the ship ready to sail. Finally, sails billow to life with a crack--the ship pulls away from the dock, crew still firing at the mercenaries below. As the ship breaks heads for open water, Izzy shoves at Stede's chest
"Fuck, Bonnet you're heavy..."
He shoves at Stede again. Stede doesn't respond.
"Bonnet?" he says, panic making his voice sharp, and then "Stede?"
He grips Stede's shoulders. The man groans and Izzy's head spins with relief even as his adrenaline spikes. He runs his hands over Stede's head, down his neck, searching for...
"Fuck! Somebody help me!" he shouts. "Roach! Bonnet's been shot!"
There's a flurry of activity and then Stede's limp body lifts, freeing Izzy to scramble out.
Frenchie and Wee John help Roach maneuvre him onto a stretcher as Izzy pushes his hair out of his face. Stede groans again as they move him, eyes blinking open, focusing on Izzy. He reaches out, grabbing for Izzy's hand, holding on tight.
"Izzy, darling, are you alright?" he says, speech slightly slurred. Izzy laughs, a pained little sound.
"I'm not the one who got shot, you idiot," he says, voice breaking.
"Oh," Stede says, looking down at himself.
Frenchie and John carry the stretcher belowdecks, into Roach's makeshift surgery. Izzy stays next to Stede, holding his hand. Stede keeps his eyes on Izzy. Blood spreads across the back of his shirt, no exit wound.
"Flip him," Roach says. "I'm going to dig it out."
Izzy steps back as John takes hold of Stede's shoulders, Frenchie taking his legs. Roach stabilizes his hips as they roll him onto his belly. Stede cries out, the sound harsh and choked off
Izzy hisses, wrapping his arms around himself. He feels fucking useless. Roach glances up at him.
"Come over here," he says, holding up a knife, running a flame over its blade. Izzy approaches slowly, uncertainly. Roach nods towards Stede. "Hold his hands."
Izzy crouches down in front of the table. He takes hold of Stede's hands, lacing their fingers together. Stede whimpers as the motion pulls at his injury, but then looks up at Izzy, smiling tightly
"Not to worry, darling," he says. "A pirate's life, eh?"
His hair is soaked with sweat, face pale. Izzy swallows convulsively.
"Oh, shut up," he says, squeezing Stede's hands.
"This might sting a bit," Roach says, uncorking a bottle of rum with his teeth. "Hold him down."
Stede screams as Roach pours rum over the wound to sterilize it. Izzy holds on to his hands for dear life, Frenchie and John pinning his hips and legs as his body writhes in agony.
"Fuck," Izzy says through gritted teeth. His voice breaks again. Roach holds the rum bottle against Stede's lips.
"Drink," he says. Stede does as he's told, amber liquid spilling from the corners of his mouth as Roach pours it down his throat. Finally, he pulls the bottle away, setting it down on the table with a thunk. "Now hold him tight. If he moves too much, I might hit something... essential."
He passes his blade through the flame again.
Roach makes a triumphant sound, fingers parting the flesh he's carving. He sets the knife aside, picking up a pair of tongs and fishing around in the wound. After a moment, he draws them out, slow and cautious. The bullet clatters down on the table, blood-streaking the dull grey surface. Roach grabs the rum bottle again, pouring another measure over the wound, then taking a swig. Stede moans quietly, still unconscious
"Almost done," Izzy murmurs to him
He doesn't expect a response, of course he doesn't, he's not a fucking child. He must be imagining things, he thinks, when Stede's face seems to relax at the sound of his voice.
"Come on, Bonnet," he says anyway, feeling fucking ridiculous. "Stubborn twat like you, you'll be fucking fine. Just... just hold on, alright?"
Roach picks up a curved needle, stitching the wound with surprisingly tidy sutures, tying each off before moving on to the next.
"He's lucky," Roach says at last, mopping up the last of Stede's blood with an alcohol-soaked rag before tying a clean bandage around the shoulder. "Missed all the important bits. Keep it clean, keep it from festering, and he'll be good as new in no time. Well. Mostly."
Izzy keeps his eyes on Stede's face. Slowly, he lets go of his wrists, feeling the numbness in his fingers, the tightness of the muscles in his back and neck from holding Stede down.
He reaches up, pushing the hair out of Stede's eyes at last, stroking it back, tucking strands behind his ears. Stede murmurs softly, wincing as he shifts. Izzy, absurdly, finds himself cooing softly, petting Stede's hair. A knock on the door startles him. Olu hovers just outside.
"How is he?" he asks, looking from Stede's prone form to Roach, now leaning against the counter, smoking a joint with bloodied hands. Roach shrugs.
"He'll live. Probably."
Izzy stands, ignoring the way his legs shake. He needs to work, to do his fucking job.
"What's our heading, Mister Boudhari?" he asks. Olu's eyes widen as he looks at Izzy, and Izzy realizes suddenly that his cheeks are wet. He swipes an arm across his face irritably. "And where the hell is Ed? Stede's his fuckin'-- he should be here."
He looks away, missing the way Olu, glances to Frenchie and John.
"Um. Well. Bit of a problem, there. He's gone."
He has his numbers, sure, and enough letters to do the books, but no more than that. He squints at the page, blurry letters swimming in front of his eyes, useless.
"Fuck!"
He slams the letter down on the table. He could ask the boy for help, Lucius. There's no time for this nonsense. Stede murmurs in his sleep, calling for Izzy, for Ed. Izzy slumps down in a ridiculously plush chair. He buries his face in his hands, shoulders shaking as he sobs.
*
It doesn't take long for Ed to find a ship headed in the right direction. He leaves his leathers on the Revenge, ties his hair back. His beard is short, close to his jawline. It makes him look younger. That plus a simple cotton shirt and breeches--"neutral tones, classic," as Stede would put it--and it becomes almost insultingly easy for Blackbeard to travel incognito. All these years to build his reputation and all it takes is a change of clothes?
But no matter.
He has other things to worry about.
He works for his passage--he doesn't want to attract attention by waving around too much gold. And besides. He needs something to do with his hands, to keep him occupied.
If he thinks too much about where he's headed, what he plans to do, he'll go mad, or worse, lose his nerve. He can't afford that.
Izzy can't afford that.
He keeps his head down, follows orders, competent but not too competent.
Just another body on deck. Keeps to himself.
The other men give him a wide berth. He's not unfriendly exactly, it's just... well, spend long enough at sea and you develop a feel for things.
You know when a man has the devil at his back.
And you know when that man turns to walk through the gates of hell, and spit in the devil's face.
Ed follows orders.
The other men cross themselves and mutter charms against the evil eye.
The ship sails on.
"Gone!" Stede winces as the volume of his own voice is enough to send pain ricocheting through the torn muscle fibers of his damaged shoulder.
"Fuck, watch it, you fucking twat," Izzy says, more force of habit behind it than genuine anger. He takes Stede's shoulders, guiding him to lie against the pillows. Stede still looks pale, dark circles under his eyes, souvenirs from the blood loss. He looks up at Izzy. Izzy's eyes are bloodshot, hair unstyled.
He looks like he's been crying. Looks like he hasn't slept. Stede reaches out with his good arm as Izzy fusses with his blankets, muttering something about him catching his death, just you wait and see, and when's the last time Roach checked Stede's temperature anyway and--
The flow of Izzy's words stops when Stede's hand grips his. He looks down at it, breathing too hard, eyes too bright.
"Izzy," Stede says, managing to sound a bit calmer than before
"You said that Edward is gone."
Izzy stares down, refusing to look at Stede. His lashes are thick, hiding his eyes as he picks at Stede's comforter with his free hand. His lashes look a little damp, Stede thinks.
"That's right, sir," Izzy says, voice a little too rough for the formality he clings to. "He left a note. I couldn't... I mean, I should have asked the boy, shouldn't have waited, sir, I--"
"Izzy," Stede says again. Izzy falls silent.
He still hasn't looked up. Stede squeezes his hand. His shoulder throbs, pain pulsing in time with his heartbeat. So. Ed's gone. He left. Stede clears his throat. Right. The note. Izzy mentioned a note. He clears his throat again. His vision swims--he feels the heat of tears bubbling up in his eyes and he blinks rapidly, trying to clear them.
"Where is it?" he asks when he finally thinks he can trust his voice--still, it quavers, traitorous thing.
"Well? Don't just fucking sniff it, read it!"
Stede's eyes snap back up--Izzy's looking at him at last, glaring. It's the best thing he's seen since he woke up.
"Give a man a moment, for god's sake," Stede snaps, "I'm feeling... feelings!"
Izzy bares his teeth.
"Feel your fucking feelings later, right now just read the fucking note!"
"Oh, fine," Stede says, heart hammering with a strange blend of relief and trepidation. He unfolds the paper slowly.
Izzy's eyes fix on him, pleading. Stede reads aloud, faltering a little over some of Ed's more extravagant spelling choices.
"Steade--tell Iz I aym sourry. I shoullde haeve sayvved him froum Hournygoulld mysaelf. I shoullde haeve kielled thaet baestard all thoese yeaers agou.
I goe tou reight thaet wroung."
"Fuckin' what?" Izzy snaps. "Read it again without the fuckin' voice this time."
"Oh! Right! Sorry," Stede says, and then begins again.
"Stede--tell Iz I'm sorry. I should have saved him from Hornigold myself. I should have killed that bastard all those years ago. I go to write that wrong."
"Fuck," Izzy says. He sags down on the side of Stede's bed, pressing the heels of his palms into his eyes. Stede makes a face as he looks at the note. "Did he use his own bloody spellings again? No wonder I couldn't fuckin' read it, it's like putting it in fuckin' code"
Stede looks down at the note
"Sorry, his own what?" he asks, wrinkling his nose.
"Spellings," Izzy says, like it were obvious. "He told me there was, like, the standard way, but anybody interesting made their own up, it was way cooler. I never got the hang of it. Rubbish at reading. All the letters look the same anyway, little blurs on a page."
Stede glances from Izzy to the note and back again. He opens his mouth, shuts it again, finally settles on.
"Right. We'll revisit this."
Izzy speaks before he can say more
"He'll kill him," he says, voice small. "Hornigold'll kill him. He can't do it alone."
Stede's eyes narrow, mouth set in a firm line
"He won't have to," he says. "He's right about one thing. It's past time someone killed that bastard. Izzy, we'll leave you and Jim at the next port. The rest of the crew and I will go to rescue Edward."
"You'll what?" Izzy demands, sounding more skeptical than Stede thinks necessary
From the look on his face, you'd think Stede proposed growing wings and flying to the rescue! Honestly.
"Izzy, I certainly can't ask you to participate in a rescue mission!" he protests, "Or to face Hornigold! Why, it's unthinkable!"
Izzy draws back, pulling his hand away from Stede
"For god's sake, darling, you're still healing!" Stede says, "Besides, I'm the captain!"
"Healing my ass, you've just been fuckin' shot," Izzy retorts, crossing his arms
"And now your plan is to send the only two people who can fight--"
"Well, come now, that's an exaggeration--"
"--on this godforsaken death trap of a vessel--"
"Hey, that's just mean!"
"--on a fucking vacation while you rescue my captain from Benjamin fucking Hornigold?"
"I'd hardly call it a vacation!" Stede interjects as Izzy turns away and starts to pace.
"And all this because I'm some, some delicate fucking flower that needs protecting?"
Izzy splutters, face red with fury.
"Oh, for god's sake, Izzy, you're being completely unreasonable," Stede says, badly miscalculating.
"Unreasonable?" Izzy hisses. Stede abruptly senses his mistake. "Unreasonable! Oh I'll show you unreasonable, you fucking twat, if you try to leave me in port like some miserable fucking housewife while you go gallivanting off to save the fucking day, I'll have Roach declare you unfit for duty. He'd do it, you know."
"What?" Stede says. "That's not-- he can't-- he wouldn't!"
"Yes he would, and then you could convalesce in a fucking inn like a fucking maiden dying of consumption while I fucking rescue Ed, you smug bastard."
Izzy stops his pacing, crossing his arms, glaring at Stede. After a moment Stede sighs, exasperated
"Fine!" he says, shortly, "If you insist."
"I fuckin' insist."
"I know, that's why I said fine!"
They glare at each other, both breathing hard
Izzy's eyes shine, still too bright in the low light of the room. His lower lip trembles just slightly. Stede's face softens.
"Izzy--"
Before he can say anything more, Izzy crosses the floor and kisses him.
Anger's always been a good shield for Izzy. Keeps him safe. Keeps him alive. Keeps him... keeps him alone. That's safer, too. He can drape his anger over all his truths like a cloak, keeping him just a little apart from them. Hell, if he gets really lucky, the person he's talking to will just walk away, or at least dismiss everything he says out of hand. Just Izzy yelling again. Nothing to worry about.
It doesn't work on Stede. Stede pays attention.
He snipes back, drawing Izzy out, making him angry enough to be incautious and before he knows it, he's spilling his guts to the bastard.
"That's why I said fine!" Stede snaps at last, voice high and sharp.
Izzy glares at Stede, propped against an absurd, truly self-indulgent number of pillows. He swallows hard. This is what he wanted. It is. He doesn't have to say anything more. He doesn't have to say anything about how frightened he is right now.
More time than he could have dreamed thirty years ago, when Ed turned to him in the night, told him he and Jack had a plan. Stupid, ridiculous, absurd. Fucking brilliant. The thought of Jack brings a lump to his throat. And Ed... well, Ed was never really his at all. But he's Ed's. He always knew he'd die like this.
Stede's eyes are a warm, soft brown. He's not glaring anymore. He looks sad
"Izzy..." he says gently. Izzy could say any of it. All of it
He can feel it bubbling just under the surface, trying to push its way out of him, into the open.
He kisses Stede before it can escape.
*
Stede gasps as Izzy kisses him, both hands cupping Stede's face with ruthless tenderness. Stede reaches up with his good arm, cupping the back of Izzy's neck. Izzy whimpers, tension draining out of him at the touch. They have more to discuss. Even if Izzy insists on staying, he certainly can't face Hornigold himself
So long as he takes Hornigold with him, he can't bring himself to care. The idea of losing Izzy or Ed is unbearable. This new understanding with Izzy, still so new, a tender green shoot in the garden of his heart.
"What?"
Izzy pulls back from the kiss, looking at Stede skeptically.
"What do you mean, what?" Stede says, losing his train of thought.
"You made a face," Izzy says, suspicious. Oh. Right. Stede's train of thought rolls back onto the rail.
The tender shoot, a lovely romantic idea when it occurred to him, proved a bit unpleasant when he imagined an actual plant sprouting from his actual heart. He probably had pulled a face at that.
"Um. It was nothing," he says, unconvincingly, and then. "Oh, for god's sake Izzy, it's-- it's nothing to do with you! Now will you please come here and kiss me again?"
Izzy huffs derisively, but crawls onto the bed, stretching out along Stede's uninjured side
"The fuck kind of pirate says please?" he mutters as he leans in, looking down at Stede's lips. Stede wraps his good arm around Izzy's waist, pulling him in firmly enough that Izzy makes a soft, surprised sound.
"A gentleman pirate," he replies.
"Oh for fuck's--" The rest of what Izzy has to say is muffled by Stede's lips. Stede holds him close, kisses him as tenderly as he knows how.
Whatever happens, at least Edward and Izzy will have each other.
The way Izzy bickered with Stede, all those little moments when they got just a touch too close, stared just a bit too long, well. Izzy's never been one to wear his heart on his sleeve. Nah, he's the type to slap you across the face in hopes that you don't notice he's dropped it, still beating, right at your fuckin' feet. That's how it was with Jack.
Ed wraps his arms around his knees, worrying at the hardtack with his molars. He was jealous of Jack.
Never knew why Izzy chose him in the end. Always wondered. Always felt like one day Jack would come back, and Iz would realize he'd made a mistake and... He shivers, a chilly wind whispering through the balmy night to run down his spine. Fuck. He doesn't want to think about Jack anymore. It makes him feel sick to his stomach.
But Stede and Iz... Before all this, it felt almost possible. Like all it needed was a little push. Like he could have them both
And now...
Well, can't have everything, can you? Not even if you are fuckin' Blackbeard. Not now, anyway. But he hopes they'll find some solace in each other after this
He doesn't have any illusions about this--he knows his odds are bad. Probably should have run the plan by Izzy. He snorts, shaking his head. He doesn't need to live through this, so long as that old bastard doesn't live through it either
He stares at the horizon.
Just a few days now.
