On vacation with the family, day one. The journey took 15 hours, by car. By the time we arrived, I was exhausted. Grandma greeted us, it was nice seeing her, but she *insisted* that she was going to continue calling me my deadname. And that someone had to change the blanket on my bed to a "girl colour".

Tbf she doesn't know about any gender stuff, nor do I plan on spending any energy on explaining. It still hurts.

Called my bf for support, he called me his handsome man. #trans #transgender

It just... Really hurts, because I've always loved her so so much. She's 90 and I always wonder if it's the last year I'll see her. I've always thought of her as extremely kind and caring, I guess she has been. I just can't see people who refuse to show that kind of basic respect the same way as I used to do. So sad.

#deadname #transandautistic