toiletwholeDo you need to vent about something?
minimarI FUCKING HATE CAPITALISM THE WORLD IS FUCKING BURNING AND NOBODY GIVES A SHIT
SturgiesYrFaseThat's not true. I care!
I do too. It just feels like that a bunch psychopaths hold a lot of power that is keeping us from progressing.
All that money, hoarded like dragons, seen as a high score to beat ...
Should be lined up. Might be more environmental care if the heads of giant corps were made to clean up their company pollution with their own money.
I feel this deep in my bones. Lately I'm watching conditions deteriorate all around me and wondering what rock bottom is going to look like. We're heading there fast and no one with any power to slow the descent gives a single fuck. It's depressing as hell.
I feel this and was about to come say the same shit
I do give a shit at least, loads do. Capitalism is cancer, people who support it works for them because they've never suffered or cared for anyone but themselves.
I'm a skilled fuckin mason. But I've put my notice in so I'm being given all the shit jobs on my last week. The past three days I've been descaling parts of the wall. What's descaling you ask? Going over the entire wall with a hand brush and a wire brush, knocking off all the loose bits. Meanwhile their star mason is installing stones with ledges so big you could hang a fuckin coffee cup off em, and totally missing mortar on entire stones. Literally just plop em on the wall and keep going. Fuck this place, and fuck Bob specifically.
Man Bob sounds like a real piece of work. Good for you, I hope you find a place that can utilize and appreciate (in the form of payment) your talents and commitment to quality of work. Best of luck internet stranger!!
Got high hopes for the next place. It's technically a government job, and while I hear it's really dull, I also hear they do exceptional work.
Shitty for them to do that to you. Would it impact your next job or your wallet so much that you can’t just tell them to fuck off and just walk away?
HeartyBeastNope, I'm good. But thanks for asking.
I'm at a crossroads in life where I need to start making large and impactful decisions about my future. It's a very lonely place to be.
Will my long term relationship last? Do I want it to? Will I try to stay in this (IRL) community? Do I want to? Will I stay in this career path? Can I afford not to?
Etc.
Usually I'd talk to my partner about all this, but because our relationship is also part of my issues, I feel like I can't. So as a result... I'm feeling lonely and overwhelmed.
That's really tough. I'm sorry you feel like you have no one to talk to, especially when you're considering such tough decisions. If it's worth anything: it is my opinion that at some point it's ok to be "selfish" and consider the things that will make you a happier, healthier person in the long run so that you can then share this "better person" with someone who deserves it. Take a break, assess, regroup and start over. You got this!!
Thank you, kind stranger! I appreciate it. :)
Are you me?
Seriously, I feel you. I recently had a big life change to something that I thought I wanted to do. Turns out, it isn't even close to what I expected. Not that it's bad. Most people would consider it their dream. But is it what I want to do? I dunno.
It feels like I've just been following everyone elses dream. I wish I could just do a long walk about. Like hike the apalations and really consider what I want for me. Unfortunately, I have people that depend on me, so I can't.
I did start therapy recently and it's been a huge help.
PerogiBoiMy manager is in meetings all the time but has a big ego so they have had no time to view my work but they ABSOLUTELY insist that they know exactly what I’ve done and that it needs to be better.
Bitch all the things he’s complaining about I’ve already done but it’s impossible to get a word in.
Totally get this
These people make my hair go grey and my telomeres go short.
saplyngI watched my grandfather die last night after months of him battling ALS. I've already accepted his death years ago and I know he's at peace now so it's okay.
But the fact I can't explain to my dog that she should stop looking for him and waiting for him to walk through the door tears me up inside.
I'm sorry for your loss
ThatWeirdGuy1001I've completely given up on finding someone to spend my life with. I'm 27m and I have nothing to offer outside of love. Every girl I'm even slightly attracted to already has a boyfriend. I'm not unattractive but I have resting bitch face and I'm intimidating. I've lived my whole life with people being afraid of me which fuels my need for companionship. I know I'm not owed anything from anyone but that doesn't mean that it doesn't still hurt.
Anymore I've just accepted that I'm going to die alone because I'm only going to be wanted for what I can provide when I just want to be fucking loved. My own family doesn't even love me. All they can talk about is how I'm not good enough or I'm not applying myself correctly.
I hate being a man..
AkasazhI was like you at that age, it stinks to feel unlovable, it's the loneliest feeling ever.
That said I quit my job, went back to uni and finished something i should have long time ago. In that process I met my current wife, at 37.
So never give up hope. Instead of investing time in others, try learning to love yourself a bit more. If you don't approach every woman as a potential mate but just as a person it gets better, too.
I know it's easy to say from where I am right now, but best of luck and much strenght, bro!
Yeah man wtf why is it that it feels like EVERY SINGLE GIRL not only already has a boyfriend but there's like twenty other guys in line ahead of you? How does that math work out when the population is roughly 50/50?
I'm sick and tired of working for other people. Having to take PTO to do literally anything you want to do on a weekday is so fucked, and I'm one of the lucky people (who works PST while in EST). Corporate policies and politics truly do run rampant through every company, and I just need to keep working on products until one becomes sustainable long-term.
Feel like that's the key to financial and physical freedom - making the next big thing, then getting it to a solid state and just doing gradual improvements. Don't pull a spez, don't piss people off and don't add too many new features after a while or you'll kill what you have. And for the love of GOD, don't go public.
IPO'ing and going public are what kill companies with great things running for them, simply due to the "keep growing every day until the company inevitably collapses" mindset.
Plus the hyper-focus on quarterly profits by investors. Why give PTO now if it hurts the three-month bottomline now. Imagine the difference in employee satisfaction due to proper treatment (work-life balance, pay, other benefits) if investors where strongly encouraged to keep their money where it is for 5-10 years.
RandomStickmanI have no energy to do the things I want to do and my parents would pull the "I worked full time and got a masters". Like yeah, of course I appreciate their sacrifice but damn.
Every weekend I stay up trying to recoup some time to do the things I want but I end up just feeling more tired.
Mostly unrelated but also I feel like I'm living half a step detached from society. I am grateful for my SO who mostly get me at least.
BuddhaBeettleSounds like burnout.
Don't have any advice cause Im not doing so great myself, but maybe set some small goals for yourself that look more achieaveable and enjoyable. Set a few hours to rest and do whatever without needing to feel productive, set some days to go out and do something different, some museum you never visited, or if there is some kind of event in your city like live music or whatever. Some times it will not be your thing, other times you may discover something new you like, at any case it gives you things to talk about and discuss with your SO and peers.
Don't have any advice cause Im not doing so great myself, but maybe set some small goals for yourself that look more achieaveable and enjoyable. Set a few hours to rest and do whatever without needing to feel productive, set some days to go out and do something different, some museum you never visited, or if there is some kind of event in your city like live music or whatever. Some times it will not be your thing, other times you may discover something new you like, at any case it gives you things to talk about and discuss with your SO and peers.
I always thought it's run of the mill depression and never considered burn out. Maybe there's something more specific I can do about it.
Hope things work out with you as well.
EigengrauThere should be tumbler mass exodus like for (Twitter|Reddit) . Along with everything else wrong with it , if ive to be subject to seeing peops with anime twink pfps who think they're hot shit blabber about "(chronic|termin)ally online (teen|20 yo) kinnies" one more time , am gonna delete this fucking app
Go on, staff. Do the stupidest thing imaginable wit that website , make it unbearable for us to stay on ‼️📉 WE NEED TUMBLR EXODUS NAOW
ShellSurfI hate feeling like I'm just a number to every business, person, or company. Every transaction feels like they just have to do the absolute bare minimum, and if they don't even accomplish that, it doesn't matter because I'm just a number.
If I can piggy-back off of this: I’ve been feeling this especially hard when it comes to doctors recently. I’ve had an on-going problem, and it feels like I’m getting blown off at every turn. My PCP referred me to a specialist, the specialist is ignoring my history and prescribing me something I’m not comfortable taking, and now when I try to call my PCP and the specialists office to figure out what to do they point fingers at each other and try to get off the phone as fast as possible. It feels so disgusting. I can empathize that for them the system must suck as well, but I’m just trying to take care of my health and it feels like I’m met with so much resistance.
The only thing they haven’t skimped on is sending the bills.
poolitics <leaving the typo> - just... ugh, all of it!
Well you see I just found the fediverse and everything seemed fine, then you get issues with the front page not updating, and deleted comments don't federate and user display names and profile descriptions doesn't update and um... its just annoying. Not anyone's fault, developing code is hard, I know, but this is a post about venting so...
And real life is just not something I'd even wanna begin talking about, it'd would be 5 more paragraphs of stuff no one wants to read.
I don't know what the heck to do with my life.
I should be happy I finished my major but Im not, Ive been depressed and confused ever since.
It seems like most of the "typical career paths" for my profession are not for me and my attempts to do something a bit different are met with really strange looks from my peers, my friends, my family and my coworkers.
I should be happy I finished my major but Im not, Ive been depressed and confused ever since.
It seems like most of the "typical career paths" for my profession are not for me and my attempts to do something a bit different are met with really strange looks from my peers, my friends, my family and my coworkers.
NiI think a lot of people feel lost after university, I know I did. Also very few people I know got to their careers using a neat path, a lot of career paths look like chaos. I also went down an unconventional, difficult path after university, as nothing else seemed to fit. I think you just have to do what is best for you and know it'll work out in the end.
Thank dude, means a lot. Here's to hoping everything works out
I’m lonely. I broke up with my partner last Valentine’s Day (found out she was cheating on me!). Turned 30 late last year, I work from home, and I’m not super outgoing y’know? I haven’t tried online dating since 2017 prior to this and it just sucks. It’s awful. It’s so hard to get a sense of a person on there so it ends up not being very successful. I’m sick of being in my apartment like fucking Rapunzel in the tower.
Do you feel like going back into the dating pool now?
I say this because I broke up with my partner one month ago, dating since 2018, and I feel that after 4 months my healing process will still not be finished. Do you have any friends around, maybe old acquaintances you can have a drink with? I don't work from home, so my coworkers (who I surprisingly adore) have been instrumental in getting me back to life. Not dating yet, but at least being social. They've been planning events, activities and such, which isn't uncommon for them, but when I was with my partner we would never go to these things.
Don't take this as advice as I'm 100% not suitable to give it, take it more as support. I've also been seeing a therapist (I had a lot of issues that led to the downfall of the relationship), if that's an option for you I would recommend it.
I've been trying to get assessed for ADHD for almost a month now, and the therapist i've been trying to schedule with has been dragging their feet for WEEKS.
Both my brother and father have ADHD, my brother was diagnosed when he was a teenager but my dad was diagnosed in his 50s (I am 30). I work from home, which works great and I have no regrets, but when I get distracted, i get distracted HARD. I am constantly getting up, I have about 60 tabs open on multiple monitors, about every 30 seconds I think "I should look at xy or z" and open a new tab. When i'm not working, I have to have 2 or 3 things on at a time (read social media app redacted, have a tv show on, play with my dog, ect), and I have constant decision block in choosing how to spend my free time. It's getting to the point where I'm up until 2am or worse towards the end of every deadline. I have a bunch of side projects I really want to dig into, but I can't seem to maintain focus on any of them.
My insurance covers the costs of therapy but only within network, so I feel a little hamstrung to use this therapist because they're the closest to me and have great reviews and seem to have an approach I would appreciate, but JESUS CHRIST just respond to my fucking emails! To add to the stress, I feel very self conscious of the perception I might be fishing for drugs, and ever time I send a follow up email i feel like i'm making it look like I don't really need help.
I feel like i'm failing my wife, and my employer, and my friends, and I just want some help so I can get my life a little more in control. It's exhausting.
CatfishI utterly despise my supervisor. Seriously, shut the fuck up! These 85 meetings could have all been an email, you don’t listen to the rest of us anyway, and nobody gives shit about your medication schedule. Learn how to manage yourself before inflicting your crap on other people.
kanervatarDepression. I am very lonely. I have no plans for the future. Everything feels meaningless, most of all my existence.
MiddleWeighLife is a struggle to make something from nothing. You may not feel you have direction, but you are on a path to becoming a more fulfilled being with each day and experience.
Your assertion that life is only emptiness is largely true. The only meaning is what we create.
Try to love yourself, feel every feeling you can, and appreciate you get to be anything at all.
Happiness and purpose is just a perspective, one that I have chosen. It comes and goes, it's always a battle.
But i used to be empty. I used to be nothing. I wanted to stop existing.
Nothing has changed as far as my outlook on the world, but I have found meaning in the meaningless. I have filled my emptiness with worth.
I think it comes down to appreciation. I'm alive, and that's pretty crazy. Might as well enjoy myself, fuck the rest. Don't do shit you don't wanna do. What's the point?
Appreciated words. I feel like the difficulty level of life is too high for me, I'm not skilled enough at living in this world.
I hear you there buddy trust me. I was not long for this world either. I quit. I shot drugs for over a decade and just sank to the bottom, uncaring.
No one is skilled enough. Look at the world for evidence. We are vompletely unequipped for the task at hand, but I think that's what makes life interesting and worth living.
Make the best of your pain. Feel it. Accept it. Maybe you will find something in plain sight you missed before. Always keep looking. It's a battle.
"Some quote about a journey"
I am absolutely exhausted with me and my kid's ADHD. My wife is always upset at us because we can't remember shit and I've spent my life feeling guilty because nobody will ever just give me a break.
I'm expected to be "on" at all times and I just can't do it forever. Sometimes I just need to do things my own, likely inefficient way, but at least at home it usually ends in being berated because I didn't do it "the right way".
It's so insanely demoralizing. I don't even want to bother trying at anything because it will only be met with derision. What's even the point. Fuck it all.
Shit like that is why I still dream of disappearing forever to be alone and just left to my own devices.
Thanks for letting me vent. Just so tired.
BananaI am so angry. I am so sick and tired of just stating my experiences as a woman and having people who are not women straight up tell me that I'm wrong. About my own life experiences. It's fucking exhausting to be surrounded on all sides by bad faith actors, knowing full well that you won't get through to them, and feeling defeated, like the world is going backwards and you can feel your rights being torn away from you bit by bit, trying desperately to stand up for yourself and having any words you say fall on deaf ears. I'm so sick of not being listened to. I'm so sick of not being believed. I am so fucking sick of not being respected. I just want to be treated like a human and not be criticised for literally just fucking existing.
I'm so done.
ComatoseSquirrelI'm sorry you have to deal with that. I hate dealing with people enough as a man. I can't imagine how frustrating it must be to deal with all the bullshit you are stuck with, having your opinions and experiences dismissed, etc. I hope things improve for you (and all women), but it looks like it'll get worse before it (hopefully) gets better.
I really appreciate your comment more than you know. Just having a guy read what I wrote there and not only recognize it, but believe it and validate it means so, so much.
I'm lucky in that I have some close male friends probably a lot like you who are willing to listen and are actively improving themselves and I am so very thankful for that.
csm10495I wish Python was faster. It's so easy to write code in it.. but then it's easy to get bottlenecked either in multithreaded workloads or just from weird io choices.
Like I wrote some code to talk to LDAP using an open source lib and big queries are like 10x slower than shelling out to ldapsearch. So I like Python, but man the performance bites me sometimes.
There are small gains being made to make it faster, but bigger ones seem to be in perpetual limbo.
I wish my life wasn't this complicated. Wife left me couple of years back on her own and now she won't divorce me until I pay a heft amount to her.
On top of stress and depression, I got diagnosed with multiple health problems including high cholesterol and diabetes. Life sucks for me at this point. I just wish all this gets over soon so I can focus on my health and career more.