šŸ”„CassandrašŸ”„Jun 5, 2023

I'm just back from singing, and I'm a little rattled.

I figured I'd have a rough time re: musculature, since I haven't really been *speaking* much since the pandemic began. (Vaping weed, though. A LOT.)

And I knew it would be rough because I got punished for making noise, and that's actual trauma to overcome.

Plus I knew it would be rough because I gave up music for decades. It surfaces emotions and I needed to *suppress* them to Be Perfect (to survive). So, like, there are *feelings.*

Show threadšŸ”„CassandrašŸ”„Jun 5, 2023

(How much of alexithymia is a trauma response, a learned behaviour from having been punished for having "wrong" emotions and needs?

#ActuallyAutistic )

Show threadDark Sheep Arts Has MovedJun 5, 2023
@Cassandra That's a good question. I don't have an answer, but I can absolutely identify with having spent my life feeling that my emotions were bad, wrote, out of proportion or just 'too much.'
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@Cassandra (With the further info that I'm Alexithymic, since I forgot that not everyone knows what happens on the isnide of my head!)
Jun 5, 2023 at 8:32pmWeb
Show threadšŸ”„CassandrašŸ”„Jun 5, 2023
@DarkSheepArts (I had assumed it as necessary context for your comment.)
Show threadDark Sheep Arts Has MovedJun 5, 2023
@Cassandra Nice one!