Eniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023

i love being perpetually behind on everything whether its my job or my personal affairs or various side gigs its great not feeling like i'll ever have a chance to catch my breath

"oh oops looks like you had a rough couple years good luck ever catching back up on what you couldn't get done during that time"

Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023
i know about financial bankruptcy and email bankruptcy but there's no "life task bankruptcy" and i really wish there was. i just wanna start over and not feel like im constantly drowning
Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023
it's exhausting having to do calculus every day to figure out what parts of my life i should neglect so i can get stuff done on other parts
Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023
i thought it'd be better after moving to cyprus cause i'd have more energy but of course moving to cyprus has kicked off an entire chain of dominos that need dealing with so even after 10 months here im not sure ive made much progress
Show threadRev. GothAliceMar 26, 2023

@eniko 🫂

I have a personal, well, not rule, but… ideal? "I do what I can, when able." The "when able" is the important part. Since my stroke, I've had no choice but to slow down. I've come to recognize when I'm being unfair to myself.

I've had to adjust personal expectations not just from the traumatic incident, but from… just… getting old. My "projects" folder has thousands of entries collected since the mid 90's.

The problem becomes prioritization. Gotta collimate the mind-laser these days.

Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)
@alice bureaucratic institutions, business partners, etc, don't really care how much we're able to do
Mar 26, 2023 at 9:19pmWeb
Show threadRev. GothAliceMar 26, 2023
@eniko true 😔