Eniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023

i love being perpetually behind on everything whether its my job or my personal affairs or various side gigs its great not feeling like i'll ever have a chance to catch my breath

"oh oops looks like you had a rough couple years good luck ever catching back up on what you couldn't get done during that time"

Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023
i know about financial bankruptcy and email bankruptcy but there's no "life task bankruptcy" and i really wish there was. i just wanna start over and not feel like im constantly drowning
Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)
it's exhausting having to do calculus every day to figure out what parts of my life i should neglect so i can get stuff done on other parts
Mar 26, 2023 at 8:31pmWeb
Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023
i thought it'd be better after moving to cyprus cause i'd have more energy but of course moving to cyprus has kicked off an entire chain of dominos that need dealing with so even after 10 months here im not sure ive made much progress
Show threadVanquesseMar 26, 2023
@eniko ❤️ I hope it's right around the corner.
Show threadRev. GothAliceMar 26, 2023

@eniko 🫂

I have a personal, well, not rule, but… ideal? "I do what I can, when able." The "when able" is the important part. Since my stroke, I've had no choice but to slow down. I've come to recognize when I'm being unfair to myself.

I've had to adjust personal expectations not just from the traumatic incident, but from… just… getting old. My "projects" folder has thousands of entries collected since the mid 90's.

The problem becomes prioritization. Gotta collimate the mind-laser these days.

Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 26, 2023
@alice bureaucratic institutions, business partners, etc, don't really care how much we're able to do
Show threadRev. GothAliceMar 26, 2023
@eniko true 😔
Show threadKaren StrickholmMar 28, 2023

@alice @eniko

That's really helpful, thank you! I find having a small handful of operating principles to guide me helps so much, especially since I've entered a rough patch in life - primarily medically, but also financially, energetically, spiritually, practically.

One of mine is the "Someday-Maybe File," a place (ex. living as a notes file on your phone, a file folder in office) to put all those commitments/ideas. Don't want to commit, don't want to lose.

#DisabilityMatters

Show threadTeaceratops/GameDev MumMar 26, 2023
@eniko it took us 2 years to get on our feet in India, and 3 years to get on our feet in Canada - do not feel bad about 10 months; you are absolutely running the gauntlet of emigrations, and no matter how badly you think you are doing, you will get through it.
Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 27, 2023
@Teaceratops thank you 💜
Show threadTeaceratops/GameDev MumMar 27, 2023
@eniko I’m here any time you need a reminder 💜
Show threadVelvet Cupcake GamesMar 27, 2023
@eniko Immigration is... rough. Every nation has so many hoops to jump through and so many things you're just supposed to know but of course you don't. I just did USA to Canada and even that had far more challenges than anticipated. I can imagine what it's like with a larger cultural and language barrier.
Show threadEniko (moved ➡ gamedev.place)Mar 27, 2023

@vcgames I figured it'd be a lot easier being a European returning to Europe even if it wasn't my home country but I was wrong

I mean it is a lot easier than dealing with US immigration, but it's not easy

Show threadProfessor of Bimbo Studies 🔞🏳️‍⚧️Mar 26, 2023
@eniko Big mood