It is I, Paul.

I earned a new Meniere’s merit badge today: First Drop Attack! 🙌

I was half way down the stairs when it happens, fell into the wall, and managed to get to the bottom without harming myself. For the minority of sufferers that experience them, they often manifest in the later stages. So on the upside, I may be close to being through this thing; the downside is that I can’t now drive for a while.

#MenieresDisease #VestibularDysfunction #DropAttack #ChronicIllness

Feb 12, 2023 at 9:24pmMastodon for iOS
Show threadIt is I, Paul.Feb 13, 2023

A reflection: I’m the wrong side of the frustrations I’m going to accumulate, so I can’t fully appreciate what not driving will do to my life; I’m yet to fall and do myself harm; I’m yet to pause before doing something, fearful that an unannounced #DropAttack may derail my plans entirely.

Instead, I feel hope.

I’m going to beat #MenieresDisease, and I’ll be so much more than it’s stolen from me; because it’s forced me to consider who I am, and find value in my foundations.

Show threadBetwixt & BetweenFeb 12, 2023
@pauledevans I hope you do feel better soon. This sounds scary—especially on the stairs.
Show threadIt is I, Paul.Feb 12, 2023
@blbc thanks. It feels more like one of my regular episodes now: lighter vertigo, brain fog, fatigue. My new reality is sinking in though. I reckon it’ll be a week before it really sinks in.