I’m watching Phil Rosenthal’s tribute to his parents and it is of course funny and lovely, but man it hurts too. Not to scare those of you who haven’t lost a parent, but no matter how bad you think it will be? It’s worse. It changes you forever. I don’t think I’ll ever be the person I was before I lost my dad.
That doesn’t mean who I am now is bad, but there’s a perspective on the world you just don’t have before suffering a loss like that. The world feels a little less magical, a little emptier. I think having kids probably renews your sense of wonder, but that’s not in the cards for me.
@torriangray I lost an uncle that helped raise me a couple years ago and choke up every time I talk about him. There’s a bit of music that goes quiet with the passing of each loved one until eventually the silence becomes deafening. Existential angst isn’t just for teens.