Thinking about going to church tomorrow fills me with anxiety and anticipation. I have such a difficult time interacting with people irl, and even though I've been at this church for over a year, I hardly know anybody. I really struggle with feeling like nobody wants to get to know me (in general, not just at this church).
Yet, this place is where I feel most at peace. This is the place where I believe that God meets me at his table.
These conflicting feelings are hard to make sense of.