@HotHeadSheWolf
@HotHeadSheWolf
< head was swimming in the most incredible way. I didn't pull her against me but i did pull her closer, something in my mind telling there would be time for all of that later.

@BadBoyEmbryCall

The hum in the air began to flow over my skin. My bare arms started to feel small bumps growing over them. I knew what they were, but I’d never had them in years. Goosebumps? I was kissing someone... no... not someone... I was kissing Embry Call, and I wasn’t questioning it. Because I knew if I started to question this now, there was a likely chance that my walls would go back up.

My hands moved up over his shoulders, slipping over his -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

neck feeling the warm skin that was the same as mine. And then they were in his hair. His Hair… I was holding Embry Call close, kissing him and he was kissing me back… Tilting my head to the side a little I deepened the kiss, and then in need of a breath I pulled back resting my forehead against his.

Closing my eyes, my chest rising and falling to the beat of his heart, I kept my eyes closed trying to pull some words together.

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@BadBoyEmbryCall -

“What are you doing to me?”

Of all the things, I found it best to say what you were thinking. And the pounding in my chest wasn’t a reaction I was used to having.

@HotHeadSheWolf
This was like the most vivid dream I had ever had. But how could I dream something I had never felt before?

The way it felt to have her lips against mine, the taste and scent and feel of her overtaking all of my senses. then her hands started to move set trails of fire in their wake. Her fingers were in my hair and shivers bolted down my spine. Hell! mine were hers and I was still breathing!

There was no way I could dream what I felt like to share each breath with her. It >

@HotHeadSheWolf
<
was happening.

My heart felt like it could punch through my chest when she deepened the kiss. When she lay her forehead against mine i kept my eys shut, my hand slipped back to her cheek... I never touched a woman like that before, I never wanted to. But with her it just seemed like the most natural thing to do.

Her heart was pounding as hard as mine. "I have no idea." I whispered breathlessly, my forehead touched to hers and now I did pull her closer, >

@HotHeadSheWolf < gently.

"But... What it is... is amazing?"

@BadBoyEmbryCall

“Amazing?” Of all the things, something
Amazing coming out of the way this night had gone was surprising.

He sounded like Embry, and not all at the same time. Again it was hard to put into words, but something was different in the way his word sounded to my ear.

My eyes fluttered open when my body moved closer into him, he had moved me… I never let that happen, or more so it wasn’t something men could do. When I dug in, there was no moving me.

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@BadBoyEmbryCall -

And it was another thing I hadn’t thought of. “I can’t break you…” it was low, a whisper for only our ears.

I hadn’t tried to break him, but the fact that he was still sat her. And for once I hadn’t had to worry about holding him too tight, of pushing him too hard.

My mind was clearly all over the place, so unlike me. With the way it darted around from place to place.

@HotHeadSheWolf

I couldn't help smiled when she echoed the word back to me. Her voice was breathy, I hadn't heard her like this before. The closer she moved, the deeper the feeling of belonging got. And then her words opened up a whole new to me.

She wasn't fragile... I could hurt her. Not unless I set out to and that wasn't going to happen. I didn't need to a check myself with her, or worry about causing her pain accidentally. I flattened my hand against her back and moved it up. Feeling >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< the heat and the defined muscles there.

Now it was my turn to echo her words back. “I can’t break you...” and voicing the thought seemed to break a dam somewhere inside. “Really... Don’t kill me this time,” I whispered and then I pulled her against me the heat of her and the feel of her against me woke up my whole body. My hand slipped to the back of her neck and I kissed her harder than before.

I hadn’t taken hold her like this before because all I’d wanted to do >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< was follow this feeling to be close to and let whatever this feeling was to take hold.

I didn't want to claim her, or paw at her the way I was sure had happened to her too often in the past. But this... This was different this was exploring a new possibility with her.

I grained softly into the kiss, tasting her tongue again and holding her tightly against me. Not painfully tight, just allowing my body to give in the natural instincts it had in a moment like this. It was >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< freeing in a whole new way I never thought of before. And the fact the it was Leah... My stomach rioted. Even if it might earn me another punch.

@BadBoyEmbryCall

He understood, of course he understood what I meant without the need of explanation. It was something we all had to learn, to have drilled into our minds. Our strength, our hardness, our need to have more than others, the drive to let go in a world of fragile beings… but this.. him.. me… here and now…

“Spirits.” It had never occurred to me.

My eyes searched his once again. Now I knew when he asked me not to kill him, he was about to do something that would make me want to-

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

My mind flamed to life when his hands took a hold and he grabbed me. The instinct fight back was rampant to the point I had to snap my teeth to stop the reaction to take life.

His lips crushed mine as he pulled me into him. My arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him too. And this time, it wasn’t the slow tentative touches from before.

The pit of my stomach twisted to the point that I could feel a fire starting to come to life. The kisses before were tender, searching -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

And filled with so much that was unspoken. But this… it was testing, understanding, and freeing all at once.

His tongue danced with mine, and I knew that we shouldn’t know how to do this, and yet that unspoken belonging and peace that came from being this close to him. Made it so that we just knew.

@HotHeadSheWolf
My heart pounded when her strong arms pulled me into her too. Spirit’s! My head swam… heat pulsed through me I softened my hold and my mouth against her, that curiosity satisfied… the prevailing need was still that searching and exploring everything that this was doing to me…

She had to feel this too.

The kiss slowed but stayed heated and deep. When it, stopped took a deep breath and pressed my lips to hers again… and again. My hand on her cheek moved up along her jaw. >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< I wanted to kiss my way along her jaw but restrain the urge. “Wow!” The breathy word slipped out before I knew.

“Still real?” I was asking myself… her… the universe in general.

@BadBoyEmbryCall

It’s was like a switch had been flipped, the growth of that need to learn, to see , to feel was like a fire that spread over the top of water. It was burning hot and yet if you stayed under the water beneath, there was safety.

But was there safety in this? How did I still feel like there was. Like this was the right place for me?

His kissing slowed, mine mirroring him. My lungs burning like that rest of me as I finally took in deep breaths. His hands weren’t holding me -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

as tightly, and mine were in his hair again. The kisses he placed on my lips were gentle, softer, and still it feed that fire in me.

I didn’t hear him at first. The pounding from our heart had been like drums that had found their rhythms together. But when his words sunk in. I slowly pulled back. Coming back to reality.

“Still real.” I didn’t dream, so he had to be real. This has to be real. And it occurred to me.

“That move should have cost you your hands… -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

It’s a good thing, in a woman of my word.” I’d promised not to punch him when he stepped back into my home.

@HotHeadSheWolf
the way her was beating in time with mine... it shouldn't be possible. I chuckled softly at her comment.

"I know..." My thumb swept along her jaw again. Her skin was so soft and yet I knew the strength that was beneath it. I had kissed Leah... I had pulled her body into mine and not been punched or laid out for it. "But it was partially your fault... you did point out that we can't break each other. And we all know my reputation for self-control."

My hand moved down the >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< the side of her neck and I smiled.

"How can something feel so delicate... and belong to the strongest person you know?"

@BadBoyEmbryCall

Pulling back my eyebrow raised. He was saying 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 a lot tonight/ this morning..? Whatever time of day it was.

“You know and you still dared to go through with it? Do you have a death wish?” It’s the only reason I could contemplate for his actions.

My eyes closed, his hand on my neck sent that hum of energy shooting down me, and again I held my breath. This was astonishing, he was the first guy to touch me, where the coolness of his hand didn’t hit me first. -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

I didn’t need to gear myself up for it, or remind myself not to react to it.

“Wait…” I pulled back a little. “Did you just call me delicate? Because you know I could kill you for spending such rumours about me.”

But I knew what he meant, my hands slipped back down to his chest. He was fit, muscular, well put together. And yet there was this gentle side to his too.

@HotHeadSheWolf
"I'm starting to think I just might." I teased with another small laugh. "Just... curious." I licked my bottom lip and fixed my dark gaze on hers. I felt her go still when she held her breath.

Was it me that was making her feeling like this? I swallowed hard when she pulled back... knowing only too well what she was capable of, but I smiled. She was a woman of her word, like she had said.

"That's not exactly what I said." I whispered... lowering my voice as I dipped my >

@HotHeadSheWolf
<
head into the crook of her neck and ran the tip of my nose up along her throat. My mouth went dry. Fuck!! How did something that make every cell in my body vibrate? "Your skin... feel...s soft, almost delicate... but you..." I pressed a kiss to her throat. "Are any but... its a paradox." I kissed her again, feeling her pulse beating below my lips and a groan left my chest.

@BadBoyEmbryCall

What was wrong with me? How was I Letting myself react to every touch from him, when I didn’t from anyone else?

My gaze remained on him, and I knew
I wasn’t going to say that line about Curiosity killed the cat, because we were anything but. I had been the same way, the question had just arose in my mind, I said the words, and he was the one to step up to test it.

When he leant into me again, that twist in my stomach tighten making sure that the fire in the depths of -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

My stomach was still alight. My throat bobbed and my breathing caught again, making me chastise myself. I had to get a grip here.

But this, with him. It wasn’t the same.

My hands slipped up, one curled into his hair and the other resting on his back.

“That’s something that has always been me.” Every his voice was causing my body and heart to react. “It’s just how I am made, and—“

The kiss to my throat made me loose my train of thought.

@HotHeadSheWolf
Her fingers were in my hair again and I felt a shiver wind it's way down my spine. She was so close that knew she would feel what it did to me and I wanted her to. I wanted her to hear the erratic sound of my heart sd my lips and tongue explored the places that made hers erratic too.

“The Spirits broke the mould when they made you, Leah.” I kissed her again deeper and with more need. My lips closed over the spot where I felt her pulse. Careful not the leave any her... >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< not that it would last long enough to be seen. I had no desire to leave a mark on her, I wasn't laying a claim. I was opening myself up to her laying everything bare.

So was she, in her own tentative way. That was the only reason I was still here. “I knew there had to be a reason our paths were linked lately.” I kissed her jaw and worked my way towards her ear. “I've never felt anything else like this before,” I whisper and moved my hand over her clothes to rest above her >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< heart.

I want to ask her if she had... But I knew that she would show me her answer her own way. It was like she was a sheet of music snd I had suddenly learned how to read it.

@BadBoyEmbryCall

My eyes flickered to the ceiling, I had to bite down on the inside of my cheeks to stop the sound building it’s way up, looking for escape to stop. I wasn’t one of those women who made those sounds. I wasn’t into feeding a mans ego. He should know where he stood without the need to have me show him.

But that was me being stubborn? Was it? Just because I’d not felt the need to let go before, was I trying to prove something to myself now?

I could feel his reactions here. -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -
He wasn’t hiding them from me.

“Paths..?” I brought my mind back to his words. My head falling to the side without my thinking it. His lips, kisses, the closeness was making it difficult to think. The way my body started to melt into him, letting him know he was on the right path now.

I gasped as his attention fell on that sweet spot on my throat that send electrical bolts all the way to the depths of my core.

“Paths.. hmm…” I pulled back and jumped up from the couch -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

Holding my hand outstretched towards him.

“You’re… this… I can’t think…” and I was used to thinking no matter the situation. I was always in control of my wits.

@HotHeadSheWolf
Her body seemed to ease against mine, and it was incredible... It was Leah, and she was letting of that constant self-control.

It didn't last long, but the moment had been engraved on my memory. It was stunning how I had been holding on to her tight but... When she jumped back, my muscles instantaneously reacted and let her slip away without any resistance. But I immediately felt the loss of her warmth.

I cleared my throat and dragged my hand through my hair. “You’re not >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< the only one.” I fave a breathy chuckle... The closeness had left its mark on me too.

But get to say it was entirely different for me to. She was a planner... She thought through everything. “Okay.” I reached out and took her hand. “So let’s... Just sit then.” my gaze locked on hers and I pulled lightly on her hand just she knew I wanted her to sit next to me... But not trying to move her. “And think.”

@BadBoyEmbryCall

My eyes darted to the hallway, the windows and then back to him when he reacted out and somehow my fingers curled their way around his.

I was searching for my wolf, she was still radio silence. And I knew she told me I had to do this alone. But she’d never been this closed for this long.

I swollen down the sensation of… well… something, I wasn’t sure what it was. I wanted to being close to him, and run, and kiss him, and punch him for making me feel all these things. -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

I rubbed my free hand over my forehead trying to clear my thoughts, when he lightly tugged on my hand. And when I looked down at him, it was his deep brow eyes that took a hold. It felt like I was meant to be there, lost in them. I was myself with those eyes, because somehow those eyes had seen passed the walls.

“Hmm…” I stood there for a while before daring to step forward and take my seat next to him again.

“Thinking… thinking is good. Thinking of the path… we were -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

set… you… me… the evolution… you know about that… I know about that.”

This was the first time in my life I was saying what I was thinking, and I didn’t like it so I clapped my mouth shut.

@HotHeadSheWolf
She was flustered and I knew it shouldn't but made me smile.

But she sat down and fell silent I stopped. I knew that this was having a deep effect on her... She prided herself on having the answers or finding them when she didn't have them.

I let go of her hand but I didn't move away from her. “Leah... There's just the two of us here. We didn't need to figure this out right now. We can just...” I paused this really wasn't my strong suit... I wasng exactly known for being >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< a deep thinker. “Take it one step at a time. And you can ask me anything.” that I could do for her... “I can't promise you the right answer but I can try.”

@BadBoyEmbryCall

When he let go of my head, I freed me to reaching out and pick up the glass of bourbon. Downing it in one, before I even dared to think about all this again.

“One step at a time, doesn’t give me my planning Embry.” I set the now empty glass back down before turning to face him.

It wasn’t a mistake to look at him, but it was so distracting. My eyes slipped to his lips, thinking about where they had been only seconds ago.

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@BadBoyEmbryCall -

And those had been in my hair. He’d had his hands in my hair and he was still alive.

“I’m not sure there are any right or wrong answers.” This made me scoff as soon as I said it. “The Great Wolf would be so proud.” I muttered. It was one of his lessons.

‘Don’t look for the answers, let them come to you.’

@HotHeadSheWolf
"Planning..." I repeated. Another thing I never did often. But I agree with her about there not being any right or wrong answer.

"Leah.." I said with a smile... "I'm not sure the great life concerns himself with things like this." Her eyes were on mine again and my heart stuttered. "I mean the big question here... is... what do you want to do with all of this? We can keep walking this path and see what happens... but if that isn't what you want then..." I paused and tried >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< to think straight but with her eyes on mine. I got lost too easily.

"Those are two very different conversations." I knew what I wanted the do... walking away earlier tonight was hard. even though I knew it was what she wanted but I couldn't be selfish right now when she seemed to be so deeply rattled.

"But either way Leah... Everything will be okay."

@BadBoyEmbryCall

My mind stopped again when his heart did that thing again. I was nowhere near him; we weren’t doing anything, and his heart still shuttered a little?

I rubbed my forehead again while I listened, he was really talking sense. But when did that happen? “When did you start speaking this way?” I’d noticed it in Seattle. He was thinking more than he was letting on.

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@BadBoyEmbryCall -

“Two paths? There are so many more than just two paths Call.” But which one did I want? My hand flinched remembering what that feeling was when I hadn’t stopped him. Even when the Spirits had told me how to stop that pain, I thought I was doing the right thing for him.

“Call...” I took a step towards him and then stopped. “Do you still think that this… wasn’t something I wanted to do?” He’d said it a couple of times now, and I wouldn’t blame him if he was looking to run.

@HotHeadSheWolf
I knew she was right... but there was no way to cover every potential outcome. "I know Leah... this isn't going to be simple no matter what, but were jump ten steps with taking the first one." I knew I wasn't explaining this right... but if she let every potential scenario in she would spiral.

"No... maybe that thought entered my head for a moment... but I know that you make your own choices no matter what." I looked up at her again.

"And you certainly wouldn't lie when >

@HotHeadSheWolf < you told the same thing. But just because you wanted to... that doesn't mean you have to want it again. This is me and you... neither have all that much experience with the /After/ part of things. So... doesn't that make the biggest question whether or not this is something that you want again?"

She owed me nothing... I mean... I had crossed a few too many lines tonight. And I knew I shouldn't be putting this all on her shoulders, but I knew in my gut that I did want it. >

@HotHeadSheWolf <
I wanted to see where it led. And I knew that good or bad It was something we could handle... we were probably the only two in the pack that could. Because we knew what the priorities were.

@BadBoyEmbryCall

Mow my mind was thinking about a million outcomes. He was right of course, but hearing it coming from his lips made it real. And I’d hit hard. What were we thinking?

𝘕𝘦𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 /𝘈𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳/ 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴. 𝘚𝘰... 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘪𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯?

“That’s… that why I said you needed to be protected.” I swallowed taking a few steps back from him. Giving him the distance he clearly needed-

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

Turning away I stepped into the open window my eyes looking out to the new day, one that brought so many questions with it.

“We’ve both never done any of this. Do we even know how…” it was a whispered question one the air. Closing my eyes I let my elbows rest on the windowsill.

Did I feel something I couldn’t explain to anyone when he was around.. Yes. Did it make it right for me to be stood here and act upon it? I didn’t know.

Those words that had become my reason -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

For being were playing in my mind over and over again.

𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘬. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘷𝘪𝘷𝘦.

This wasn’t sacrificing, this was hoping for more. Did I even have the right to want that?

@HotHeadSheWolf
“Don’t do that Leah.” I stayed where I was but my body was buzzing with the want the close the space she made between us. “I don't need to be proud tea any more than you do... And more importantly, I don't want to be.”

Spirits! I really wanted this... I wanted to do this with her. “All we need to know is how we feel.” I couldn't stay sitting still so I stood up and poured a health measure of the bourbon into my empty glass and knocked it back. I moved a to be the coffee >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< table, just to try and sate the urge to be closer to her.

“Just be... Selfish for one minute. What do want to do right now?” I chuckled at my own words. That was like asking the sun not to rise. “You don't have to say out loud, just think about it. Not tomorrow or a week from now. What do you want right now?”

I thought about the same thing, and my stomach the same thing again. My fingers tracing the contours of her lips, learning the details of her face and then... I >

@HotHeadSheWolf
< shook my head. I had to stop and let her take the lead here.

@BadBoyEmbryCall

I could hear his feet moving behind me, and from the sounds I could tell where he was and what was happening without needed to turn. I let my head drop a little between my arms with my eye remaining closed to the world.

He was asking me to not be me, okay that’s not what he was asking. But for me not to see the impact something like this would have on those around us was like asking me to change who I was in my eyes.

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@BadBoyEmbryCall -

“Be selfish?” Slowly I allowed myself to open my eyes to glance out again. “I don’t know how to do that. It’s not in my DNA to be selfish.” And I’d never wanted to be. It’s why it was easy for me to put my walls up and never look back.

He asked me what I wanted, that was something that made my heart do something it never did before. I began to feel that weight close around my chest, making it hard to pretend it wasn’t happening. I closed my eyes once again. -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

The Spirits had told me to stop him for me, and my wolf when she had spoken, had told me to listen to him. So, I did as he asked. For a moment, I tried to push everything that lay on my shoulders to the side. I stopped thinking of myself as the beta of a pack of Spirit Warriors, and for a second, I let myself become Leah once again… Just Leah….

I straightened up like a bolt at what I saw. It was light, it was warmth, it was joy, and -

@BadBoyEmbryCall -

it wasn’t something I ever had aspirations of.

Those deep brown eyes, the smile, the hair falling into his eyes when it was a little too long. And dimples… When did it register in my mind that Embry Call had dimples? A long time ago, but when did they become something, I looked forward to seeing? Spirits! I didn’t even know.

Turning to face him my eyes searched for those things… For the pull that I was feeling, and I wanted to be there with him in case I missed them.

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