calman...I woke up early to work on things so I can apply to jobs. now my brain is just tired and idk I don't feel great. It's hard to want to work on things when everything is so awful.
My power was out for 3 days this week. I suppose there's a lot going on in the world besides that, and it doesn't directly impact me, but idk. the mental load is real when it comes to just, knowing about the world around you. It makes it hard to pretend working is important.
I also suffer from a combination of gifted-child syndrome and shiny-object syndrome that means that anytime I work on something and it doesn't immediately pay off in some way I think, "wow, that sucked, let me do something else."