TW: Self harm
Yesterday was horrible. I lied to everyone that I didn't go into work because of period cramps.
Truth is, I didn't go in because I was too depressed to function. I slept the day away. I felt inadequate and frustrated. I acted on my pain and cut myself. But I reached out for support.
I'm still here because I want to hug my girlfriend one more time.
Because in 2 weeks, I'll see my grandmother after a year.
Because I will see a Van Gogh exhibit in December that I have waited the year for.
Because I want to watch the next season of Atypical.
Because I want to eat vada pav from a v specific stall.
Because I want to pet my best friend's dog.
Because they might miraculously make another How To Train Your Dragon film?
What's keeping you alive?
@pratyushavv
The butterflies that keeping laying eggs in my plants and needing me to protect them from ants and wasps.
My cats.
My partner and the way his pupils dilate when he looks at me.
His dog.
The trips to Sri Lanka and Andaman that I've been dreaming about for years.
But more than anything else, the fact that I've come this far after all these years of fighting. I'm not ready to give up on me just yet. Thank you for reminding me about that.
More power and strength to you ❤️
@Sharkhootery omg im so invested in the cocoons on your plants from bird app 😭😭😭💛💛💛
YES PLS STICK AROUND FOR THEM. AND CAUSE I'M SELFISH AND WANT UPDATES. I hope you're able to make those trips soon ✨
Pratyusha Varanasi 🌱🏳️🌈
Tanisha