my body is my own.
i am seizing control.
i'm manslayer izo.
a blade in my hand,
a blade under my breast,
a blade in the stomach
of the man who watched while
hitokiri-to-be,
me, a prodigy, while
i took a piss in the woods
fourteen stabs, strangled, but
"he drowned, sir, i swear it"
young, nubile bloodlust
aided tosa, his home,
given promise of growth
i grew, and they feared me
"izo-kun, be careful"
"it'd be yer head rollin'
if it weren't for my skill."
i grew with every kill.
and yet i still felt weak.
my body and my peers
both laughed and mocked me, me,
i spilled blood monthly, both
outside and in, laughing
but did i feel better?
one mexican dollar
didn't cover the cost
of cloth, but that's payday
sent away like a dog
in a teahouse, or in
someone else's home, or
in a jail cell for us
subhuman citizens
huh, my food smells funny
oh, i'm yesterday's trash?
taken by no one, not
family nor comrade
i'm disowned tetsuzou?
then i'll take you with me.
i told them everything.
my mind and body, sold
to you, will broil and
bubble and fade like foam
on the sea. i am me.
#alex-is-alive #alex's-writing-tag #fan-poetry #trans-headcanon-FGO #fate-grand-order #okada-izo #manslayer-tag