somehow it spanned multiple years. in an early scene, i received one day some random threat i was gonna be kidnapped & thrown off a high tower to my death. it made no sense, it had no context nor history, & so i ignored it & forgot it
years went by. years n years n years. no detail from that period came to my notice in this nightmare, only the awareness that great swathes of time had passed
one day, it happened. i was kidnapped, dragged off to this impossibly tall steel ladder platform thing, at least a kilometre high. the thugs [somehow] got me all the way up this impossible ladder, to the platform, which had no edge barriers at all. they dragged me to the edge, then pushed
that very instant of me leaving the solid & being only in the gas, about to be liquid, knowing i was about to die this way, was when i woke up, incredibly upset
faaarquen hell, wot on earth is wrong with my skullgoo that i do this shit to myself?
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