Christianity primed white people to feel guilty when certain Pavlovian bells ring.

Accused? Wrongdoing even subtly implied? Guilt! Shame!

Then, if it's a respected authority doing the implying (be it parent or priest), we're primed to submit.

If we don't respect the authority of the "accuser," well, were primed to see them as the enemy in the all-or-nothing good vs evil war. "My authorities haven't called that a sin so who is this person anyway??" And we lash out. At women, POC, queers, disabled, and often, even ourselves.

What, you're white but never were Christian? Sorry, but you were programmed this way, too. (If you feel mad at me, that's the programming.)

Christianity's way out from guilt and shame is impossible. It doesn't work. It's designed to make you feel forever ashamed and in debt to Jesus — or rather, the religious authorities who represent him. That's how they get you.

We aren't allowed to emotionally mature to know how to handle our own feelings when we've done wrong. We're forever dependent children on the religion. We go to confession, do the penitence, feel a few days of relief, then go back to feeling guilty. No matter how well-meaning any particular clergy, this is by design.

Now suddenly here's these people I don't respect out of unexamined implicit bias dumping more crap on me.

Aren't I bad enough? Haven't I submitted enough? What am I supposed to do about it?

I'm hamstringed. My white brain has been lobotomized wrt how to handle this. But also, I've been told by trusted authorities that I'm not a racist, so I'm not!!! Out comes the Karen.

Colonialism=Christianity=Corporatism

It's all the same system.

Freeing ourselves from this system means freeing those whose oppression we enable.

Because it's all the same thing.

#AbuseCulture #ReligiousTrauma #exmo #exmormon #exvie #exvangelical #antiracism #antifa

I saw a white evangelical basically screaming at the camera yesterday on YouTube about patriarchy, racism, capitalism, and SA, ready to split from every Christian, even the progressive ones, and while I disagreed with some of her minor points and her shouting gave me a headache, I'm emotionally so with her.

Would that even 25% of white women had even a portion of her intensity and self-awareness.

#exmo
#exmormon
#ReligiousTrauma
#antiracism
#deconstruction
#LDS
#Mormon

🎶 Genealogy: Are you "doing" it? 🎶

Or are you just listing names and dates so you can nonconsensually force your dead relatives to conform to some arbitrary standard of perfection in the afterlife?

#exmo
#exmormon
#ReligiousTrauma
#antiracism
#deconstruction
#BYU
#LDS
#Mormon

In Mormon news, BYU tried to make an indigenous student cut his braids. So fuck them.

Thankfully, they responded to pushback and now will not make him do that, but I'm sure they will continue to get away with all of their other attempts to control the hairstyles and harmless behaviors of literally everyone else.

(Which is why this issue is a "white" cause as much as it is anyone else's. My Celtic and Germanic ancestors wore long hair in all sorts of styles, and so did yours. Whiteness restricts all of our freedoms.)

#exmo #exmormon #ReligiousTrauma #exvie #exvangelical #antiracism #deconstruction #BYU #LDS #Mormon

It's weird. I had a feeling I was going to win. Just this little joking voice inside me.

I figure the odds were in my favor. There probably weren't too many tickets in there.

I think I spent $5 on two tickets.

#ReligiousTrauma #Idaho

So you'll never believe this. I won the raffle. I entered for the $50 gift basket. So a really great investment for me! And I hope those kids have fun on their mission trip and learn more than the people they're going to teach.

#ReligiousTrauma #Idaho

I accidentally enthusiastically gave money for a mission trip to Costa Rica today.

I thought it was a school thing. Outside the hardware store, kids selling hot dogs and raffle tickets. What else was it going to be for?

But I'm in Idaho, sigh.

I love being in Idaho, and I've gotten comfortable here. Being white, a cheerful smile goes a long way. People here are very friendly.

They are also very Christian of the unexamined supremacist type, and I sometimes forget that. I've learned to safely navigate the culture here, but they're still trying to impose it elsewhere.

I hope they have fun on their trip, and I hope they learn more about the wide world than they manage to teach about their narrow one.

#ReligiousTrauma #Idaho

There were the lies of Christianity, which infected western culture with the lies of colonization, which infected naturalists' minds with the lies of intellectual superiority, which infected modern scientists with the lies of scientific colonialism, all of which hid the fact that all along, many, if not most, of the tribes of the Americas were far more rationalist and empirical than Europe.

My experience of Buddhism is the same. At its core, Buddhism values truth based on empirical evidence. These are not ideas that were invented in the west, and the western scientific method is only one such method among many.

What is hopeful here is that after millennia of trying using all their technological might, western colonialists have failed to completely stamp these cultures out.

Ideas are alive, and they do not die so easily.

#ReligiousTrauma #decolonization

TIL about the Piraha people of the Amazon, whose language makes it impossible to convert them to Christianity.

In fact, a missionary attempting to convert them in the 1970s ended up deconverting after experiencing their culture.

https://youtu.be/innTGsOCuJw

#ReligiousTrauma

Why Christianity Hates Indigenous People

YouTube

Alone. Completely alone.

I wish I had someone I could really, actually talk to.

Sometimes I miss my therapist, but then I remember how she would get uncomfortable and respond, "well I'm a Christian" when I would start on MAGA and Christian Nationalism contributing to my existential depression…

And am I going to find a therapist in fuck-nowhere-Kansas with different views? Nope.


#adhd #autism #audhd #cptsd #religious-trauma #depression #isolation #exhaustion #grief #rejection #broken