#JIdol: DevilKill Disbands - Message

Original Japanese msg. Followed by machine TL

朝会場に向かう時から
なんだか夢の中にいる感覚で
ほっぺつねったりして、あれ、？

ってすこしふわふわした変な感じで歩いてた.

デビキル始めて1年8ヶ月.
海外、名古屋、大阪、仙台、温泉、神社、各地で歌を歌った.
沢山の悪魔ｻﾝ達と出逢えて

始める前、絶望の中で腐りかけてたぼくを
もう一度
アイドルにしてくれた

ぼくなんかが誰かの救いになれたら嬉しいな
って
歌を歌ってきたけど
救われてたのは、ぼくだなあ.

笑顔も泣き顔も.頭の中にずっと残る.

いつからか
ショックな出来事があった周辺の記憶を
勝手に消しちゃう癖がついてて.
色んなことが上手く思い出せなかったり
しょっちゅうなんだけど.

脳に刻んでくれて有難う.
きっとずっと生きる糧.

苦しくて悔しくて沢山々泣いたアイドル人生だったけど
長かったようであっという間な

みんなのおかげで
本当に楽しかった.

心からの有難う.

表現　は生きる理由　だから
きっとこの体は休めないだろうな

またね☺︎
だいすき

Translation by DeepL

From the time I left for the venue in the morning
I felt like I was in a dream.
I was pinching my cheeks.

I was walking around with a strange feeling of being a little flustered.

It's been a year and 8 months since I started Debikiru.
I sang overseas, Nagoya, Osaka, Sendai, Onsen, shrines, and many other places.
I met a lot of devils.

Before I started, I was rotting in despair.
Once again
You made me an idol

I would be happy if I could be of help to someone.
I've been singing...
I've been singing a song...
But it was me who was saved.

I was the one being saved.

I can't stop smiling, I can't stop crying. . will stay in your head forever.

Since when
I have a habit of erasing memories
I have a habit of erasing memories around shocking events.
I have trouble remembering things.
It happens all the time.

Thank you for putting that in my brain.
I'm sure it's something you'll live with.

.My life as an idol was painful, frustrating, and I cried a lot.
It seems like it was a long time, but it didn't take long at all.

Thanks to all of you.
I had a really good time.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Expression is the reason for life.
I'm sure this body will never rest.

See you soon ☺︎
I love you!

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