Goddess help me, today was horrible

I got to work and the girl before me did almost nothing before she left

the customers were all being mean and angry

the truck came in, a full day early, while I was the only one working

I kept making dumb mistakes because I was overwhelmed

a guy came in to work on the registers, and his voice sounded exactly like Krish, one of the men that assaulted me

I was hiding in the back room crying every chance I got

I was panicking and triggered for basically my entire shift

everything hurts

I'm exhausted but too adrenaline to rest

my brain is on fire

and I think my coworker who came in to relieve me was annoyed that I hadn't gotten more done

but I'm listening to music from Chrono Trigger and Final Fantasy VI and it's helping me calm down

I have an appointment with my therapist on Tuesday

"I'm alive, but I'm not well"

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