The Animal and the MachineHello insomnia, how I’ve not missed you, although oddly for once it’s reassuring.
Over a year ago now I came to the wild conclusion that I had #ADHD. It really felt wild but in retrospect there were a thousand small hints.
It would appear my brain has inbuilt power management and only cycles up when it thinks it needs to. These are animal evolved so I am #AmazBalls in a crisis.
The mechanics of society however could require full CPU but only receive 40%.
This examination of evolution through self led me to extend recapitulation theory etc and conclude we are all animals who evolved machines on-top. It explains everything, and so TAATM began.
So, with a stimulant, in my case coffee, treated like a prescription, I’ve been able to jack up my brain to 100% from morning until the evening when it starts to drop off. I feel like I’ve got superpowers. So much seems easy now. However, with great power, comes great responsibility, so I’m here for you now, starting with Ukraine. 🇺🇦
Side note. I had treated caffeine like an addiction and continually had worked to reduce it after it would climb. My actual solution was to up it until dosage was found.
Almost immediately, at night, I hit the wall around 11pm and just went to sleep. OMFG. With that, I could get up at 6am, no problem. I’ve not had insomnia since until today.
Over the weekend I had what felt like Covid, obviously I tested (negative) and isolated, and on the other side, my appetite is just coming back. I’ve had 1 coffee today and I’ve got insomnia. I was clearly at 50% / half asleep this morning and don’t need it.
So it’s 1:30am in the UK. I have insomnia and I’m absolutely thrilled!