I used to hate the whole "hurt people hurt people" phrase.
But I'm watching someone harm someone I love because they're hurting, and I am an ocean away and cannot do anything, and I am tired and sick and angry.

It doesn't matter how well you say grace
If you are sitting at a table where you are offering no bread to eat.

A fun bit:
My period, my birthday, and a vacation have all coincided into the same time period.
My mental health is hella volatile and every little thing is making me big sad, which is lit.
I just wanna stay at home and chill tomorrow, but I won't be able to. I'll be with my whole family, who will want to be v highkey and celebrate a bunch. And that's the last thing I want.
It sucks and I don't want to bring any of my family down or ruin the trip.

I'm going to speak to my mother for the first time in 2 years this evening.
I'm nervous but I hope it goes well.
I miss her. Not the things she did, but the good that I could find in her sometimes.
Having my dearest friend in my life again has helped me feel so much more myself that my goals and dreams have changed in such a way that I feel like I can do things I never could before.