She/Her. 1992. AuDHD. “The void leans in, eager to speak. Hell shows its teeth, twice a week.” Check my linktree for my ongoing story on AO3.
Unprompted internal debate theater:
What justifies the label of trauma, hm? A medical diagnosis? Would you even accept that as "official" if you're not missing limbs? Would you still deny it unless you also experienced it? So when are you allowed to BE hurt?
Me every day since January 1st: I'm going to do dishes, sort laundry, sweep and mop the house!
*Dissociates*
Me every day by the time my husband gets home from work: Oh I seem to have been gardening/doing nothing this whole time. Now I'm shaking and need food, water, and a nap.
So many things were avoidable.
712~ people lived.
If they'd have filled each lifeboat at capacity, 1,300~ total in the 20 boats could have lived.
34~ total lifeboats and everyone could have survived.
Why do we never learn from pride... Why are we like this?
*silence*
H2:47 - Did this event inspire the opening scene in Bioshock 1??
H2:48 - With the ship gone, all that's left is whoever made it to the deck, screaming into the dark. It sounds like a rowdy crowd at a sports game.
H2:49 - While Olympic is rushing to the Titanic's last known location, comical pass by THE iceberg again.
H3 - 1496~ people died because of pride. Not even their own, and they were misled to think the ship was unsinkable. 337 bodies were all that was recovered.
Watched a 4K real-time simulation of the Titanic sinking. The anniversary date of it's sinking is April 15th.
Hour 1: Ahh the steam escaping the top sounds like a carpet cleaning video, I'm sleepy.
H2: "I'm cold so I'm going back inside! We're unsinkable!" 🤪
H2:10 - Capacity of 65!! 12-50 people were getting on EACH LIFEBOAT??
H2:35 - NOW everyone starts rushing to the deck. RIP the Orchestra.
H2:44 - While the ship breaks in two, an almost comical pan back to THE iceberg.
Common sense should mean "I've been informed of the consequences" and not "figure it out yourself and get it wrong."
"Don't touch a hot stove" is common sense because hot hurts & someone said not to.
"Common sense" changes based on many different factors person to person.
Characters already in the partial AU that I need to change or write out:
Charlie (Ayil), Vaggie (Neritha), Pentious (Unsure), Cherri Bomb (Also Ayil), Angel Dust (Stacci, somehow an Angel Dust/Striker hybrid), Valentino (Orrin), and Vox (Nekrosynth).
Lots to dooooo 😩
Been stumped on how I'm going to further write for Lucifer, which has been what's stalled any NEW new writing between me and my husband.
Lucifer is very much in Hell as punishment too, but I don't imagine him as silly as Hazbin's idea. And not as serious as others...