Mastodawn

Isvittra Oct 19, 2024

Still alive.
Another month & it should be cleared up with the scarier alternatives (tumors, cysts) off the table.

Isvittra Oct 19, 2024

I had this eye ache in my right eye in late August. Filed it under weather & didn't think further on it.
And then it started in the left. Allergies explained it.
Yeah, no.
A month later & I had lost vision where I read. It is improving though.
I don't want steroids if I don't have to.
Now we're trying to eliminate MS, but if it is, it is.
And I'm still not fully recovered from last year's adventure.
Oh & it stopped hurting.
Optic neuritis. Of all things.

Isvittra Dec 31, 2023

You'd think being chronically ill & disabled would be normal after a while, but it's always worse with added health concerns.
Think I've recreated at least half my lost red blood cells, but it's slow going. Don't get the head nudges to eat as intensely now either.

Isvittra Dec 15, 2023

Scrambling to get on an even keel. Still awful nightmares.
A volcano this time, so not a man-made disaster, unless you count our tendency to gamble & lose against the environment.
Bonus for the silent horror of near ground gasses suffocations.

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Isvittra Dec 9, 2023

Treated, healed somewhat & finally done with the antibiotics & I feel just a little more tired than usual.
But I'm going to play it safe & take a month to get back to baseline. And increase my blood volume.

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Isvittra Dec 9, 2023

A couple of things.
The single dose of morphine took care of the back pain *rolls eyes*, ofc it did. It hasn't come back yet.
I'd rather yack than try to get a nose line put in again.
Xylocaine/lidocaine still doesn't work on me.
All of this could have been done the day before.
The beds were hard enough to bruise my hips for a week.

And being praised for suppressing my fight instinct when I'm in pain is really weird.
*I* would be worried if someone kept as still as possible while in agony.

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Isvittra Dec 9, 2023

Got an emergency appointment, got an omeprazol script & took the first dose.
Now, I'd been consulting with both Gran & Mum, they have similar experiences.

But I started to feel poisoned in the evening, on top of the other BS & there was seeping acid pain as well.
I realised I could not safely drag myself back to the ER.
Ambulance, good invention.
I'm usually pale but not paper-white. So, good call.

This time I got admitted & had several bad/good things done to my body.

Isvittra Dec 9, 2023

So, I made a mistake 2 weeks ago.
After 3 weeks of unrelenting pain between my shoulder blades I, in my infinite wisdom, tried to treat it with naproxen.

This did affect the pain a little bit.
Cut it at ≈20%.
Unfortunately it trashed my duodenum.
No perforations at least.

I just knew that it hurt in the area at first.
After 3 days of being bent double I dragged myself to the hospital.
EDS did not play in my favour & I dragged myself home intending to go through the health centre the next day.

Isvittra Nov 23, 2023

I think a lot on how some pain relief would improve my life.
Even if only occasionally. Just an hour with less agony.
Maybe I could meet a friend or prep some meals. Live a little instead of survive.

Isvittra Nov 8, 2023

Mandu 🥟Nov 7, 2023

does your mother know where you are?

#deer