Took the new neighbors one of those tiny boxes of Ferrero candy as a welcome to the neighborhood gift. That kind of thing was helpful to me when I first moved here. But, no. They said thanks and practically shut the door in my face. It was humiliating.

I’m so tired. I feel so lost and empty. I don’t have a community anymore, my family is fractured and toxic, my friends are far away with their own lives or have walked away entirely. My few attempts at peeking my head in the local furry community left me cold after they found out I’m not in my 20’s. Am I doing something wrong? Why is this so hard?

My work desk spider plant flowered last month. That was cool. And now it’s making clones. Also cool.

But it’s also made a seed pod???? Girl, how did you get pollinated?!? You live alone. XDD

Sometimes it absolutely sucks being a feminine-ish presenting person.

My car was making noise when I turned right. Googled a bit and concluded it was probably a bad wheel bearing. Took it to the mechanic. “Hey I think I have a bad bearing.”

Mechanic says they don’t hear anything. It’s probably just crap built up in the breaks.

Cleaning the breaks did not fix it. Ask them again, mentioning a bearing. They insist they don’t hear anything. >:[

Took it to a different mechanic. Had to wait a week and a half to get a while-you-wait appointment. “Bearing issue?” They also don’t hear anything. But hey, my front headlight is dead. We’ll fix it for $$ >:[ Fine.

Drive the car for another week. Had spouse and his best friend listen. They both can hear the humming instantly.

I go back to the first shop because it’s next to my work and Spouse can’t drive. I’m pissed now so I try a different trick. “My friend rode around with me in the car. HE says it’s probably a bad bearing.”

Mechanic calls less than a hour later. “Hey you have a bad bearing. We can fix it for $$$” >:[[[[

So yay my car is fixed, but I’m still so, SO mad. >>>>>:[