aaaa basically times like this is when i feel like im dumb for ever believing i could make any sort of art work for a career and i should just give up now

im so ambitious and theres so many things i want to do art wise but every time i feel like i get close to where i can start working towards one of those goals i get shot down. i feel like no one believes i can do it but they dont want to directly say that to me

it sucks bc i feel the most productive when i dont feel bad for doing no productive stuff if that makes sense? like this feeling has delved down to being so nervous i cant even do anything

i was feeling soo good and getting over being nervous about not being productive but something was said to me today that makes me want to just stop everything