I need help. I'm supposed to take care of myself. I'm so hungry

The worst part is not knowing whether I'm actually not trying hard enough or if it's okay to forgive myself for having a hard time

Happy first #wenbiesday of the new decade from this depressed bitch

Despite making myself quite miserable all of the time I'd like to think i make some people happy

People who are afraid of hedonism be like "do you *really* want a life full of only happiness?"
Like
1. Yes???
2. I recognize that such a life is unattainable which is precisely the reason it does not matter how i would feel. I dont believe i should strive for enjoyment and comfort because i can or have some sense of entitlement. I strive for enjoyment and comfort because life has enough pain and despair already yo ✌

Crawling into your winter blankets box. I live here now

Me: tomorrow will be different
Tomorrow: exactly the same

Feelin better today but not better enough.
Trying to convince myself I'm on a slow trend to improvement at least