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I feel like I have slight feelings for my ex

https://sh.itjust.works/post/49092096

I feel like I have slight feelings for my ex - sh.itjust.works

So, I am polyamorous but right now I am dating one person and in a monogamous relationship. However, thinking about the guy “Jake” (40M) I (20F) dated 7 years ago, I feel warm towards him for some reason. I didn’t REALLY know him. Maybe I just wanna know how he’s doing. Maybe it’s a trauma bond. After all, our relationship wasn’t real, if you can even call it one. We dated for like a month or two. I was also 13 when he was 33 and the whole time, he missed his ex (now 30s???) Ackkkk, please help!

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akari (she/they)Nov 2

When he dumped me, I called myself a “reject” and he said “And you do realize guilt-tripping will make people hate you more, right? It will make you more of a reject so you did this to yourself kid” That’s literally all I remember.

Then I have old messages of 2019 where I messaged him, feeling guilty. I said “Hi, how are you?” J: “Good you?” I then said I was good, and that I liked his profile picture and he said “Thanks”

akari (she/they)Nov 2

Ack... Update on a post I made, did I SA someone?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/49089173

Ack... Update on a post I made, did I SA someone? - sh.itjust.works

cross-posted from: https://sh.itjust.works/post/49088835 [https://sh.itjust.works/post/49088835] > ::: spoiler Content Warning: SA, pedophilia > > So, when I was 13, I dated this 33 year old named Jake. I thought he was a roleplayer because he always showed me this young teen boy when I saw pictures “of him” on his small Discord server. Since I thought he was roleplaying, I told him my name was Rose and that I was 24. > > He was all like, “Oh, that’s cute~” and being overall flirty with me. > > Then I showed him my face so he asked “How old are you really?” > > I told him I was 13 but my OC (original character) that I was roleplaying as was 24, and told him my real name. > > He continued to date me for a little while longer, showing me pictures of this teen boy and acting like a teen. > > He then got scared and said “Yeah, we need to talk. I really shouldn’t be talking to kids so bye.” > > He also told me he missed his ex who was 20-something, so that’s when I started to realize something was up. > > His ex tried to talk to me, saying he was “tired of Jake’s bullshit” and then blocked me. > > Jake never blocked me but I got a new account and lost his contact information. > > Anyway, Jake was always flirty with me, liking my posts, calling me cute, and inviting me to his Discord where he would send photos of the teen boy, but later blamed me and said that I “made him date me” and “groomed him”. > > Did I? I mean, I lied about my age but I eventually told the truth and he led me to believe he was a 14-year-old or a boy otherwise close to my age due to the photos he sent. > > I’m disgusted with the thought that he flirted with some 14-year-old boy, potentially, and got his photos. I’m also disgusted with the thought he could have done this to someone else using my photo(s) and pretending to be a 13-year-old girl. > > But when my friend went to confront him once, he acted normal? He was like “Oh hi!” “By the way, tell Rose I said hi!” and even told him about how he was unlabelled but thought he liked his ex after breaking up with him AGAIN. > > :::

akari (she/they)Nov 2

Ack... Update on a post I made, did I SA someone?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/49088835

Ack... Update on a post I made, did I SA someone? - sh.itjust.works

::: spoiler Content Warning: SA, pedophilia So, when I was 13, I dated this 33 year old named Jake. I thought he was a roleplayer because he always showed me this young teen boy when I saw pictures “of him” on his small Discord server. Since I thought he was roleplaying, I told him my name was Rose and that I was 24. He was all like, “Oh, that’s cute~” and being overall flirty with me. Then I showed him my face so he asked “How old are you really?” I told him I was 13 but my OC (original character) that I was roleplaying as was 24, and told him my real name. He continued to date me for a little while longer, showing me pictures of this teen boy and acting like a teen. He then got scared and said “Yeah, we need to talk. I really shouldn’t be talking to kids so bye.” He also told me he missed his ex who was 20-something, so that’s when I started to realize something was up. His ex tried to talk to me, saying he was “tired of Jake’s bullshit” and then blocked me. Jake never blocked me but I got a new account and lost his contact information. Anyway, Jake was always flirty with me, liking my posts, calling me cute, and inviting me to his Discord where he would send photos of the teen boy, but later blamed me and said that I “made him date me” and “groomed him”. Did I? I mean, I lied about my age but I eventually told the truth and he led me to believe he was a 14-year-old or a boy otherwise close to my age due to the photos he sent. I’m disgusted with the thought that he flirted with some 14-year-old boy, potentially, and got his photos. I’m also disgusted with the thought he could have done this to someone else using my photo(s) and pretending to be a 13-year-old girl. But when my friend went to confront him once, he acted normal? He was like “Oh hi!” “By the way, tell Rose I said hi!” and even told him about how he was unlabelled but thought he liked his ex after breaking up with him AGAIN. :::

akari (she/they)Sep 7, 2025

is it possible that I’m trans?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/45598992

is it possible that I’m trans? - sh.itjust.works

Okay, so I’m a “woman” (or that’s what I thought). I think a lot about what it would be like if I were a guy, and I even use “Marco” as my male name. I always feel feminine, but sometimes it’s more like a “femboy.” I wouldn’t mind taking testosterone or being called “Marco.”

akari (she/they)Sep 7, 2025

is cernunnos a good name for a baby?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/45585433

is cernunnos a good name for a baby? - sh.itjust.works

it’s what my dad wanted to name me if i were born a boy. my mom wanted to name me marco, which is more common than cernunnos. I have never heard the name before.

akari (she/they)Sep 7, 2025

what did your parents wanna name you if you were the opposite gender?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/45585200

what did your parents wanna name you if you were the opposite gender? - sh.itjust.works

my mom: marco dad: cernunnos of all names

akari (she/they)Jul 19, 2025

how do i federate and see upvotes and comments on community posts?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/42437680

how do i federate and see upvotes and comments on community posts? - sh.itjust.works

i just created a lemmy instance, akarisarea.nohost.me [http://akarisarea.nohost.me], so i’m wondering how to see all the upvotes and comments from communities i subscribed to

akari (she/they)Jul 19, 2025

i did it!!!

https://sh.itjust.works/post/42437565

i did it!!! - sh.itjust.works

akarisarea.nohost.me [http://akarisarea.nohost.me] is new but born. finally. :)

akari (she/they)Jul 17, 2025

how can i help my sister hang out with this guy?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/42285435

how can i help my sister hang out with this guy? - sh.itjust.works

i (20f) live with my dad and my two sisters. i feel like i have to obey the rules of my dad for obvious reasons. there’s this boy (16m) my sister (15f) met and she’s getting to know him. she recently asked him to hang out and he responded that he would love that. however, my dad is very… weird about afab and amab people being together. his thinking is: guy and sister hang out -----> this means they are dating ----> guy will (somehow) get sister pregnant even when dad or i chaperone