Life gets harder and harder

I am one dua away from finding someone to call my bestfriend and partner but again we are humans and I can’t trust anyone to never make me feel hurt and sad and that truly is my biggest fear .

So I really really really think I will be someone known to this world and the hereafter. I am I am I am complete.

I like a guy that doesn’t not like me at all lol . What’s even more depressing is even knowing that I still think about him .. eeww

Sometimes I wish I never felt what sadness is . I hate feeling sad .

I really really want to be happy everyday and every second.

I can’t and I don’t want to fall deep in love .
My heart will hurt and I don’t want my heart to hurt not even for a second. I was created by an amazing GOD I am perfect and I belong to him only and my heart is his and it will be shame to get hurt by a human being…

I haven’t found love . The only love I know and felt is from Allah but from a human being I haven’t experienced it and I don’t know if I ever will to be honest. When I see two people happy I want it but deep down I know that’s not the whole story..

I like a simple life with no worries, always praying on time , reading Quran , trying my best not to angry my rab. And him just giving me love and peace while I wait for him to take me home and live everyday near him and having him closer . I love him and I hope he loves me more even tho I’m not that special.

I want to wake up in my house in jannah. I really wanna come home .