Edit: I had a few days to compose my thoughts. With that in mind, I'm going to take a crack at rewriting this.
Hello,
Me and my husband are being stalked and harassed by our exes, who have, almost routinely around the 2 month mark, forced their way into our life again.
When we do anything to try and get them to stop, they double down on how wretched and horrible we are, manipulating the context to fit their needs before spreading vile comments about us.
This is the fourth time, if I recall correctly, that I have semi-privately told them to stop. This will be the first time publicly.
I think at this point, I want to make it clear to everyone, so the message is received as loudly and clearly as it can be.
I do not want to be in contact with my previous partners.
- Do not put me in contact with them.
- Do not tell them it's okay to contact me.
- I do not care if they are suicidal.
I've already heard that one enough when I was their partners, and no, it was not my fault.
- I will not forgive them.
I didn't think four bullet points was needed to say a four letter word.
"Stop".
These people threatened to entrap me in financial fraud, took away my writing from me, made lies up about me, and recontextualized everything so that at all points, I am a monster. Every time my exes make contact with me, My heartbeat skyrockets, my vision blurs, and I begin to hyperventilate and cry. INSTANTLY.
I panic at the sight of purple and/or pink, ffs, because i'm scared the resulting pixels will shame me for existing, and I'll somehow make it my fault.
My entire brain lights up. I have a panic attack. Now, imagine what happens when I open that email, already in a state of shellshock from the notification, and it's suicidebait. The exact words,
You may consider me a monster for saying this, but after having this done to me by countless people who abused and manipulate me, and.. i didn't even realize it..
If you have ever loved me, you should have known exactly what this email would do to me. If I am the monster I'm very clearly made out as, then why did they send a suicide note to someone who they hate?
For everyone else:
Stop.
Stop encouraging them. Stop emailing me about them, because one of you fuckers actually opened an email with my service provider, to continue my torment.
If you override this or tell her anything different, you are encouraging someone who has, at the CORE of their message, stated:I'm going to go kill myself soon! Anything you wanna tell me before I go?Take a minute to think about how FUCKED it is to receive this.
We stand at our status quo. As we have, as we are, and as we will. And the status quo, is to stop talking. stop communicating.
just.
stop.
please.
