Kathryn de Plume 🫶

@kathryndeplume
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On a spinning rock flying through space.

Programmer. Musician. Parent.
Trans. Autistic. Monotropic. ADHD.

LocationEurope, Earth
Mastodon isn't so bad now I'm not using its horrible interface 😅
So when you see a trans person leaning into their gender more than “usual”, you can't really tell from the outside whether they’re doing it because they’re feeling good or bad about themselves. It could be either 😅

For some people it may be down to gender fluidity, and for others, as I say, it’s simply down to comfort in one’s current state of being. Some days I am mentally strong enough that my physical appearance just can’t affect me.

But it's more complicated than that, even. See on some days it’s a crutch to assist my mental state, and on other days it’s simply rejoicing in the way I feel about myself and enhancing the joy by leaning into it.

The same can be said of a lot of things actually, and I think it comes down to general comfort with one’s current state of being. Some days I can go without shaving and I’m fine with it, because it bears no relevance on how I feel about myself. Yet other days I hurt myself trying to get rid of it.

Some days are I don’t want to even perceive it tucking thong days, some days are I don’t care let it all hang loose days. The life of a trans woman 😅

On the tucking thong days (like today) you can only imagine how liberating it is (unless you know, obviously). It’s really hard to put into words.

And on the let it hang loose days, it’s hard to imagine what was so difficult on the tucking thong days. Dysphoria (and/or dysmorphia) is a really funny beast.

Also apparently I have my mumsy look down pat 😆
I bought this dress a few years ago and I haven’t dared wear it until recently.. Mixed feelings but generally OK with it.. but I *really* need to get my hormones 😔
I’m the kinda gal who doesn’t quit her torrent client when her downloads are done.

Me: “Imagine if you had toads instead of toes on your feet”
5yo: “Hahaha yeah..”
Me: “That would be weird!”
5yo: “Yeah, and your feet would ribbit..”

Just normal conversations around here 😆

Posting through dysphoria.