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i usually don’t watch classics when their production doesn’t stand up to the test of time, but something came over me recently, and i ended up watching Seven Samurai (1954)
i was hooked just from the opening scene, which is a pretty goddamn rare thing to happen to me considering any given piece of media. it’s really fucking good, people, check it!
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its my assertion that the meyer-briggs instrument is pretty silly.
its alleged to produce results that remain consistent over time, only shifting perhaps on the last letter, but this isn’t my experience.
even my therapist, whom i respect fairly well for her ability and intelligence, believes this to be true and i just don’t understand how that could possibly be.
people grow and become a radically different person. personality and mood disorders exist, and can vary in severity over time.
for me, it flips between advocate (INFJ-A), logician (INTP-T). this has happened not once but several times throughout my life, spanning decades.
now, i’m back at logician, having ran through 16p once again. a couple years ago, still post-transition, it was reporting advocate. before that, pre-transition, still advocate. the earliest result i remember? logician.
that’s not supposed to happen, what am i supposed to make of such inconsistency in an assessment tool purported to have utility for assessing my personality?
what should’ve been a 30 minute job of replacing my CPU cooler turned into 3 fucking hours of slowly and gently bending dozens of pins back into place,,, because this happened… 
i had initially installed the stock cooler that came with the CPU because i’d ran out of spoons by the time i’d mostly finished the build (spending way too much time obsessing over the cabling being clean and tidy.)
the cooler came with pre-applied thermal paste in strips. i didn’t think it’d be a problem, but it turns out this was very poorly planned by AMD. maybe the uneven surface of the thermal platform and the fact that it wasn’t even silvered like most aftermarket coolers should’ve tipped me off to there being worse things afoot, but i guess i was so brain-dead that i didn’t think anything of it at the time. 😞
that thermal compound dried out and the chip adhered to the cooler over time. when I went to remove the mounting bracket saddle to pull off the cooler, the chip was forcibly removed from the socket along with it. the closure bar on the CPU socket was still in the locked position!
this isn’t supposed to happen… i’m lucky that a pin didn’t break while trying to straighten them back out! if that had happened, the CPU wouldn’t been rendered unusable and my day completely and utterly ruined 
thankfully i was able to get things sorted out well enough for the chip to be re-seated and the noctua cooler i’d bought a year ago installed happily atop it! 😌
gaia has an offer system now 
the way it works is that on an item page in the marketplace, a user can click ‘offer,’ set a timeframe + amount of currency, and once submitted, that amount will be held in escrow for the given period.
its unclear if notifications for it were implemented. i dont see it in the settings, so it might just come down to sellers looking at the offer listings section of the marketplace. probably that’s something that will be improved upon with addons though, such as with GaiaUpgrade’s popup notifications for newly MP listed items on one’s wishlist.
one nit is over there being no delay for confirmation of the exchange should a seller choose to take you up on an offer. once the seller takes that action, the exchange is made and the offer is closed. the buyer doesn’t have to confirm anything whatsoever. i suppose given the limited timeframe of offers, and the use of escrow, this makes sense, but its something to keep in mind if you aren’t expecting it!
overall im super pleased with this new feature! i near instantly, i was able to get my hands on some unlisted items with no recent sales by putting in some offers. 
another fun story about cardiac weirdness!
i’ve been titrating back on amphetamine for adhd treatment recently. my dose is now at 17.5mg of MAS IR (Adderall generic).
this even occurred yesterday, about T+2hr after my morning dose. i’d been doing light physical activity: crouching, picking up <= 10 lbs at a time, standing, bending over, reaching overhead. i’d been doing that for maybe 30 minutes to an hour.
i was finished, and stood up finally. i noticed that i’d worked up a bit of a sweat, but nothing major. it wasn’t pouring off my face, and my breathing wasn’t labored. in fact, i was breathing normally.
but i also noticed that my pulse seemed high. this wasn’t accompanied by palpitations. i was barely aware of the fact it was elevated, even. it did feel like i was maybe slightly overstimulated with some jitters, but i wasn’t dizzy.
i went to brush my teeth, and in the stillness of the moment, i further noticed my pulse was rather high. after i finished, i took some measurements and was utterly shocked at what they came out to!
the consumer-grade pulse oximeter said 210 BPM heart rate. that’s pretty much maximum cardiac output! i double checked with a finger to my neck and confirmed that my heart was racing at least 3 beats per second 
check out the video below for that initial reading in the moment and some incredulous self-dialogue!
i then finished my oral hygiene routine, thinking this was so absurd, and after, i took blood pressure readings. i sat for this, and elevated my arm over my heart. the one attached shows 124/103, which is stage 2 hypertension! (i did measure again, 5 minutes later, and there was no change.)
it took about 15 minutes of sitting for all of this to return to normal, but it did. the event was transient… i’ve experienced elevated BP stats and heart rate when titrating amphetamine initially in 2020, but they weren’t anywhere near this concerning!
i don’t think there’s really anything to do about this. i chalk it up to very poor sleep the night before increasing cardiac strain in combination with the raised stimulant dose. probably if i were older, this would’ve put me at significant risk of a heart attack, though! 
i’ll be monitoring for now. i don’t think there’s any point in telling a doctor. maybe i will if it happens again, but i worry that they’ll decide i should go off amphetamine, and i just don’t think that’s warranted nor good for my mental health! i suspect that once i stabilize on a dose, this will stop happening.
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