i'm not letting her come to anything else that has to do w/ psych stuff b/c it's just ridiculous that i can't even trust her with This Much

i'm mad because my stepmom can't keep her mouth shut about literally anything ever lmao. the psych i met w/ today asked abt my relationship w/ my dad and i answered 'distant' and gina ripped into my dad over it

my top surgery consult is in eight hours and i'm supposed to research abt it and formulate questions but really all i've got is 'are you sure i can't do school while i'm recovering b/c i want it done now'

like yeah dont make yourself do smthn you dont want to and all that. doesnt mean i dont still feel like shit after three straight weeks of this

im not really upset abt the flake being a flake i just wish they'd realize that them constantly flaking on me makes me feel like my time and effort i put into making things work so we can hang out is insignificant at best

it's really hard to not let everyone rely on me. but i should remember that it does us both a disservice, because i won't be able to be everything they want

Guilt can be very useful.
For the three days this went on in the hallway, Rhea was her
usual quizzical and accepting self. I had to tell her about the affair,
couched in the fact that it was now over. What she said
made good sense to me.
"Just because you're strong doesn't mean you can let other
people depend on you too much. It's not fair to them, because
when you can't be what they want they're disappointed, and
you feel bad."

someone (shiloh) draws a big peen on their cast (its Shiloh) with too many details and it takes up the whole cast which is impressive considering the size of gao's arms

gao comes over to visit with a cast on and pup is sulking about it until gao bops his head with their cast and says 'stop that i hate it'