Thanks to the fediverse I managed to stay out of homelessness for almost a year past when I stopped having an income.
I've made more friends here, and local friends, and friends I've known now for more than a year. I've met girlfriends here. The community here has been really good to me.
Until the kin discourse a little over a year ago, I had community. Respectability politics got in the way of that, shattered friendships, cost me and others a lot of friends actually. Not to mention all the flat out hatred directed at us.
Then a couple months ago I hooked up with somebody from fedi. She used me for sex and ghosted me the next day. I was hurt, that shit sucks.
I wont go into all the gritty details but she made a slew of callout posts that cost me even more of my friends, opting to believe the victim rather than investigate or even talk to me about it.
She later teamed up with an old abuser to really ram the accusations home. Through a third party they ruined what was left of my reputation and cut me off from the support that kept me from homelessness.
Later, another fedi friend who I'd let crash with me screwed me over. I've been living in a van now for about a week.
My point is, this has ceased being a place where I feel comfortable. It's not fun being around all these people who've hurt me, and their friends. I cant just block them all, heck when I try my timeline goes dead. So I'm done.
This doesnt feel like a community to me any more. It feels like a constant fight, between all the call outs and avoiding the people whove hurt me, it's a dance I cant keep up anymore.
Most of my friends from on here have other ways of contacting me, and anyone whod like to keep in touch is welcome to DM me for contact info, but I'm logging off here for... the foreseeable future.
Goodbye.