hassan

@dazedbwoy
13 Followers
40 Following
407 Posts
i can't sleep.
Joined27 Apr 2023
social linkshttps://linktr.ee/dazedbwoy
- june 7. i think too much which makes my movements impossible

if i only truly lived for one day, so many of us sad little moths seeking out the light never live at all. i suppose that i am lucky. but if i am so lucky, why do i feel so doleful, so despondent, so beyond caring?

i must have to stop here; otherwise, it would go on forever.

hassan

i was happy before, or whatever it is you call not knowing what you're missing. i was living on bread and water and for one day i tasted cake. oh! see, i cannot return to a prison diet once more. so if you ever read all of this, just know that you blessed this poor inmate with one glorious day of freedom and escape.
i don't think that's very considerate, do you? just because you don't write like a good writer doesn't mean that you don't deserve a poetic departure. ha ha!
i can't gaze upon my top sheet without envisioning it twisted and looped from the overhead light fixture, swinging, tempting me with its release. the oven door gapes open and offers up its hot-breathed maw, except that i read somewhere that natural gas these days has had the lethal component removed, and the sylvia plath route has been confounded.
outside the sun is beating, bright and mocking, but my head is swirling with darkness and dread. when i lean out the window i feel the summer air sucking me out. i look down and i am drawn giddily to the vertiginous plummet to the pavement from my sixteenth-floor window. the knives in my kitchen glitter with allure like dangling jewellery from a woman's ears.