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curiousPJNov 18

I'm clinging on to poor connections because I've got nothing else.

https://lemmy.world/post/38965901

I'm clinging on to poor connections because I've got nothing else. - Lemmy.World

I’ve been alone for some time. I thought I got used to it but… I didn’t. Met an individual like a needle in a haystack. Someone whose tracing the same steps I once took. We learned that we have a lot of similarities so I was growing fond of this friendship… so much that I looked past the one-sidedness of it all. While she certainly was curious about the things she was interested about me…She was never really curious about me. I felt the lopsidedness of all the conversations and everything, yet I still instigated conversations with her. And when the conversation dried up along with her interest, it was me and my mental health going crazy. Anxiety, thoughts of worthlessness, abandonment. When in reality they never really cared that much for me in the first place and it was entirely foolish of me to invest so much into a person that wouldn’t reciprocate. Sigh… I am focusing my attention into more productive areas…

Show threadcuriousPJNov 11
I’m not the person you have been responding to but thank you for the resources, I’ll be checking them out as well.
Show threadcuriousPJNov 11

I appreciate the sentiment that tomorrow will come and that as long as there’s the will-power to live and the ecosystem that we will be ‘alright’. But …

The message sits wrong with me…Because as someone who hasn’t been treated for far too long, it bit me in the most unexpected time. Mostly everything else was okay, professionally I was doing great (even throughout troubling times) but socially I was stunted as a high schooler. I had to put myself aside to get to a stable situation. Work and study for work was basically my life.

I slept on my problems and eventually forgot all about them. And now that I want to make social bonds, I can see how much of a mess I really am.

Ignorance was truly blissful.

Show threadcuriousPJNov 2
But Gavin… While the country was under stay-at-home and isolate orders during COVID, you hosted a party.
Show threadcuriousPJOct 17
I use the website and it always automatically downvotes the 3/4th post.
Show threadcuriousPJOct 15
I’m Asian. If I do anything well in life it’s because of privilege not because I worked 2 jobs while attending community college schooling and doing nothing else for myself other than to be at a better place. My effort feels completely and utterly dismissed by some of these people.
Show threadcuriousPJAug 18, 2025
With almost no inheritance tax… No. We have to deal with their spawns.
Show threadcuriousPJJul 30, 2025

Wow… This count have happened in the 2010’s with the anti-gaming feminist and conservative movement at the time.

If only they knew to go after payment processors instead of identity groups.

Show threadcuriousPJJun 23, 2025

No a real act or terror is burning empty cybertrucks.

/s

curiousPJJun 18, 2025
How many went kaboom before this?