@nao aaahhhh this absolutely wasnt intentional i am so sorry

but yeah thats kinda the issue . i am nowhere . im barely active anywhere lately i just cant take social stuff anymore .

ill come back here from time to time and i try not to fully isolate myself,
but its not easy

wished i could have the capacity to Talk to People . i just dont have it for some reason. genuinely so sorry i didnt mean to ghost you or anything, quite the opposite actually..

@nao yeah ive been thinking about this for literally years actually haha . plus my best friend at the time got diagnosed and it kinda hit home

thing is im mostly "aware" of myself and what im doing, even though life is mostly just a blur i guess most of it comes from sleep deprivation and depression?

why is it so hard lmfao

were barely three weeks past christmas and somehow i simultaneously feel like it was right before today and forever ago at the same time

i genuinely have no idea what happened during those past couple of weeks
hell even new years eve feels like this even though it was just a week ago. genuinely cant recall anything ive done since that day other than obvious things

funnily enough dissociation gets so much worse when you start to realize you weren't there for a while