The Toaster That Tried

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Autistic lady. Trying to sort out a world that seems bent on not making sense. Religious but not spiritual. Leftist Christian. Inclusive af. Possible Cylon.
It’s so nice having the sunshine out at seven. Makes it much easier to get ready for work and for my day. I hope the sun is shining on you!
Sometimes I feel like I’m a little too autistic for certain political discourses. It’s the straightforwardness. Where is my earnest and unironic left??? I know, I’m just having a moment. but I will never fit in with any of this and I guess that’s ok?

Tried to do some writing for a project involving different people with disabilities. It was interesting and scary as I tried to navigate talking about autism from both my own experiences and a more general perspective since it varies so much. I could only address a little about the varieties which vary so much from my own though.

More tomorrow I hope.

You don't have to finish it all today.
Oh gosh, I just realized that the reason an early therapist diagnosed me with bipolar 2 is because of my autistic fixations. I knew that she was wrong after a while, but I did sometimes find these very distressing because they really affect your life and work and they can affect your sleep schedule and other things. But now I understand exactly what and why and how that could happen it made sense without understanding that I was also autistic.
also since this is the fediverse and we have an opportunity to leverage fragmentation for good, might I suggest checking out "How to Design Social Systems" https://medium.com/what-to-build/how-to-design-social-systems-without-causing-depression-and-war-3c3f8e0226d1

one concept in that piece that I liked was the idea of treating social spaces as practice spaces: places where you can find an identity, whatever it might be, and where screwing up won't screw you for good.

that's the Internet that I knew as a teen, where a lot of my triumphs and fuckups were wiped out. and I think that's a far better system than what we have now.
How to Design Social Systems (Without Causing Depression and War)

Designing for meaningful interactions and human values

@jessmahler but if for him it’s more about object permanence, that I don’t have as much perspective
@jessmahler I don’t know if for him it’s an issue of object permanence or trust though. For me it was definitely about trust, because I had realized that people might tell you things that aren’t true. And it was very important that things be true. And I was the only way I could be sure things were true.
@jessmahler I understand the experience, but I wish I had useful advice. I don’t know if there are kinds of activities or stories you could do to explain how persons A&B can be doing one thing and at the same time persons C and D&H are doing another thing and then they all meet and talk about it later. For me, I just sometimes realized that I couldn’t trust anything I hadn’t seen or heard. And so I would just reject it.
@digitalfox yes this sounds very familiar. Details are so comforting and help me avoid stress