thinking about neurodivergency today. i'm not diagnosed with autism, nor do i really self-ID as neurodivergent, but i don't really see myself as wholly neurotypical

part of it is that i do have a tendency to fixate on kinda odd stuff and that i have odd interests (i've jokingly described myself as 'not autistic but really into trains' more than once), but also i really relate to struggling to just, idk, properly socialise sometimes?

i feel like i'm generally good at socialising, but sometimes i struggle with social cues/norms and i've been told i can come off too blunt/explicit on occasions. it's not that bad but it can sometimes be annoying

idk, i don't feel like it affects me enough to be like "oh i'm ND/autistic", but i do relate quite a bit to a lot of descriptions of ND experiences and how ND people navigate the world. it feels kinda incorrect to describe myself as such, but i feel odd saying that i'm not either.