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Is personality shift normal?

https://lemmy.world/post/2245855

Is personality shift normal? - Lemmy.world

Ever since I came out to my wife and kids, and started being myself, my personality has changed, a lot. I’m more extroverted, weirdly enough. I’ve been a bit sharper with the kids, not in a mean way, but, more of a no-nonsense kinda way. I used to walk around the house naked all the time, but now I feel compelled to cover up. I blame a disconnect with my body on that one. I feel more confident to just, go up and talk to people, ask if I can take their picture. I can make posts without second-guessing myself and deleting them. I know it’s all just me finally getting in touch with myself, but it feels weird, even to me. I used to be this demure, quiet, self conscious girl, but now that I’m letting her out, she refuses to go back into the box. It’s like a seal was broken. I’m having anxiety about going to my nephews birthday party, cuz I’m not out to that part of my family, and most of them are fundamental Christians. I did manage to talk to one of my brothers today, and he accepts me, though he has some bias. Basically told me if it was anyone else, he wouldn’t be so willing. So I have some work to do there. Or not, if I can’t help him see people as people. Remember, everyone, not just the trans community: You are loved. You are valid. It’s okay for you to be you.

Euphoria and dysphoria really do go hand-in-hand

https://lemmy.world/post/2160604

Euphoria and dysphoria really do go hand-in-hand - Lemmy.world

Trigger warning: dysphoria, if it isn’t obvious. It’s kinda fucked up, amirite? I feel like a couple of people tried to get me down today, and I stood up for myself. And it felt good! I’ve been waiting 37 years to be me, to be the bad bitch I always wanted to be, always being so demure, so quiet, so… Passive. But since I came out I’ve felt this energy, this confidence I’ve never had before. I even went to, and through the grocery store in full girlmode! Yoga pants hugging my excellent buttocks and all. (It’s the one thing everyone complemented me on when I thought I was a guy) Nobody batted an eye, even found a cool dude promoting love and positivity (I thought I got a good picture, but I didn’t T_T. Imagine a 75 year old dude that rode his bike to Walmart, just… holding a sign saying “You’re Loved.” The coolest of cats.) And then… My brain has been unloading every intimate detail of my childhood; being 7, and told I can’t take a bath with my 4yo cousin cuz she’s a girl, and I’m a boy, and you just don’t do that. Boys don’t play with Barbies. The hair growing all over my body at puberty. I’ve always called myself “wolf man” from all the hair. I cried for 15 minutes yesterday because I had the realization that my mom will never put my hair up, just cuz I asked my wife to help me fix my hair while she was watching me play video games. I cried for 10 minutes today after shaving my right arm, and seeing how pretty it actually is under the hair. And then my wife got upset cuz I told her I was gonna slow down, but then I cought sight of my ugly, hairy man-hands and needed to fix that right now, and shaved my arms this morning. Thinking back on that is making me feel really dysphoric. I just want to be like you (her). I’m sorry for the vent. I just needed to clear my head. And I’m so sorry if I trigger anyone or ruin their day. I just needed to lament on what is probably a common experience.

Hi, a lurkers introduction.

https://lemmy.world/post/2096839