@PanicBomb thanks for this. We have to go through our own recovery. My parents spent $$$ trying to fix me in fancy rehabs with stupid rules. I'm a punk rocker and don't follow rules. I had to hit rock bottom on my own, be by myself, and one day I decided, "I can't live like this anymore.." after isolating myself from all of my friends and family due to distrust and lies, I made my own path for 0 dollars, lots of yoga, and lots of Netflix.