cara ‘tyrannosaurus’ ellisonI stare at this Warsan Shire poem at least once a month for hours
sarah lozano
@SarahLozano
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23 - In A Relationship - Writer
I’m looking into buying new cameras and I’m so excited.
Friend don’t let friends write bad transhumanism sci-fi.
TanukiMy mom texted to tell me that she and dad are into watching live adaptations of anime now?
...Ok.
acey is moved!ah it is the time when everyone posts their patreons so here i am https://www.patreon.com/Fidgetcetera
https://fidgetcetera.com/ for all the things i do to justify my asking for money
(also will get an end-of-month blogpost out soonish sorry i caught the flu)
I send a lot of apologies to people about my bad behaviour. I think some of it is to do with some issues of PTSD, but it could just be that I'm an asshole. It is very hard to tell whether it is me or whether I was like this before
Today however while talking he told me, maybe what I said was right the idea of losing me was what helped him get himself together.
I feel like I’m in a much better place now, but recently something happened and we felt the need to talk about it. I feel shitty for what I told him and he started to shame me for it, it explain that I didn’t know what to do and it wasn’t really a threat. I did want to leave. It’s awful but why should let him use his depression as an excuse to ignore me and waste my time.
I’m not perfect and I don’t pretend to be.
I’m not perfect and I don’t pretend to be.
He didn’t want to talk to me or touch me. I felt embarrassed and unloved. I got angry and told him if he didn’t stop being depressed over people who didn’t care about I was going to leave. I was 21, going out constantly, dating lots of people and I was trading it to try to be in a relationship with someone who didn’t even want to look at me. I panic and I regretted it.
Early on in my relationship I didn’t know how to deal with dating someone with depression. A lot of drama came around and in the end I said something to Erik that I probably shouldn’t have. He had horrible friends that turned on him. We were a few months in and bc of the conflict he fell into a depression spell and I didn’t know how to handle it.