KeriKitty (They(/It))

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Meep :3
They/Them, also “It” when a critter I like is being cute ior affectionate about it :3 Very cute, but also weird and sometimes kinda sharp
Hates this world, hates being stuck in it. Needs rescuing, needs understanding. Not happening. Only misery and extension of said misery happening.

Place for requesting help?

https://pawb.social/post/13765438

Place for requesting help? - Pawb.Social

Hi, me being a bellend asking for help again- Imean, uh, helpfully bringing up that having a place to do that could be cool. Yeah, that. I think somecritters around here were discussing such a thing at some point? squeaks meekly? (Yapping/story-stuff/rambling/???) … It’d be real cool if the aid programs around here were implemented more sensibly and responsively :-\ Finally got to see a mental-y health-y help-y critter who sent in the stuff to get me on a cash assistance program but now it’s just 🦗 🦗 and Idunno if I’m gonna be able to dispel credit bills this month, dunno what’ll happen if I don’t. I wonder if I can postpone by proving I have COVID? … Ugh. I assume there’s gonna be some kind of torture if I can’t. Have been trying not to think of it ‘cause I can’t handle shit. Am close to being able to, just that one thing needs to stop with the heel-dragging and I’ll be able to scrape by well enough to get help and start a life ([Sarcasm] At 34, which everycritter knows is the best age to be starting to live at) but rrgghhh squeaky-squawky-flaily incoherent critter noises! (End ???) Anyway, was that place ever a thing? I- er, some critters may need to borrow a buck or something. And a nap. Does anycritter have a nap I can use? I’ll give it back after 🤷 [Strange incoherent joke] Can’t taste it anyway. Bleh. (Off-topic) In other news, somehow I’ve ended up in the pridest freakin’ city? Every other weekend there’s some kinda pride thing going on @.@ Kinda neat Is’pose 😅 🤷 🐭 😶‍🌫️ skitters quietly away, still squeaking excuses and distractions >.<;

Problem staying logged in?

https://pawb.social/post/12989842

Problem staying logged in? - Pawb.Social

Is anycritter else unable to stay logged in? Every new page I go to (a post, a community, a user) shows me logged out. I can log back in, but only for that page. If it’s on my end, advice would be nice ':3 Thankies squeek 🐭

Maybe-un-doomy update (or, "A crab is making me post!")

https://pawb.social/post/8488425

Maybe-un-doomy update (or, "A crab is making me post!") - Pawb.Social

[Lie] Okay so, cowboycrustation says I have to post or he’s gonna pinch me 🙀 I currently seem to be somewhat less doomed than previously seemed likely. Turns out a kind critter contacted another who called for helps and yet another popped up like “Hay, we have a room just for critters like that one!” So now I’m here in a lil room of a four-critter family’s place, in neat lil area @.@ It’s gonna be awkweird but I’ve got somewhere to be other than frozen Minnesota street doom and there are critters trying to help me so I’ve got at least some kinda chance of getting by up here. Am sleepy now but the looming threat of crabby pinchings and/or pinchy crabbings compels me to post something so here it is :P 😅 Lots of new experiences, too. Hanging out playing board games on the floor of my hotel room with my new friends, who didn’t even know each other… that was neat 😅 Neat day. Better than the previous one. I think. I don’t really know what happened that day. Anyway, some things are happenifying. Also it’s kinda cold here 😅 Oh, the city looks super different than my initial impression. I suppose part of that is riding in a car versus riding a bus or train, but it looked much more familiar on the way here. Also being daytime probably helped a lot. My initial impression was like, dark and enclosed and often a lil bit lost, riding light rail with a bunch of smokers, trying to navigate Mall of America with eighty bazillion hunams in it @.@ D: 🙀 … That sort of thing. Muchly different! Anyway, I’ma nap or something now. @.@ 😴

Giving up was the correct choice. Now what can I do? Get told to tough it out a hundred times? I can’t. I just can’t. I can’t eat, I can’t think, I can’t stop shaking. I realize my hopes are all dreams and I just fall apart. I need out. I need somewhere safe to start, somewhere I can be okay and learn to live. It’s pathetic, okay, I’m fragile. I can’t just "hit the ground running. " You’re all wrong, you’re just getting me hurt.

Please please please someone save me or end me. I’m not okay. I can’t. I’ll fly out again, whatever. Just don’t leave me like this.

I let myself think I had a hope and a place but it was bullshit, I’m supposed to get ground up and fix myself before I can have anything. Tricked out of the end I deserve, basically, just because people insist on keeping others alive for nonsense reasons. I don’t deserve to have it easy but I need a safe place to grow and I do deserve to choose to not suffer more. Shouldn’t have listened. I hate this and I can’t anything and now I’m stuck. And sick. And screwed.

I wish I hadn’t done it. Bullet was the better choice. I wish so hard I’d made the right one instead. I can’t do this up from nothing thing. I’m drowning. Sick, can’t eat. Terrified. City is huge and danger and has much ick.

I let myself think I’d have a stable start and a friend but he’d rather I get robbed or whatever in a shelter. Maybe I just didn’t impress. Seems to have reasons but it’s just too clear that no one understands.

All the “you can do it” in the world can’t help me. I’m begging, someone keep me or kill me. I’m not looking for all your money, just a box to hide in and maybe a friend. I’ll try to help out, or pay/share rent, or whatever. I just can’t drop into all this and “hit the ground running” This is not my world

Need somewhere to stay and somewhere to go (OK->MN or other friendly state)

https://pawb.social/post/8222904

Need somewhere to stay and somewhere to go (OK->MN or other friendly state) - Pawb.Social

(Or, hell, another nation while I’m dreaming 😅 :-\ ) Walls of backstory (possible to make a cross-instance link? Doesn’t seem so): https://pawb.social/post/8062162 [https://pawb.social/post/8062162] https://pawb.social/comment/7374899 [https://pawb.social/comment/7374899] Short backstory: Broken critter, 34 Earth-around-Sol-goings old, probably agoraphobic (as in fear-of-crossing-thresholds, not fear-of-public-spaces) and AuADHD. Stuck living with “family” but now they’re abusive and near-violent. Called cops on me, tried to throw me out with nothing miles from the nearest town, threatened to cut off my Internet access as if keeping me from working out how to leave is the best way to make me leave. Hatefool logic stuff 🙄, bullies both. This-post story: Is there anycritter who can -Pick me up when I figure out where to go and/or give me/point me at a safe place to stay (am currently in northeastern Oklahoma, outside of a little town about forty minutes from Tulsa), or -Help paw-holdguide me through figuring out how to settle in somewhere safer, even a decent* roommate who can maybe help me find the best places to go/be/work/eat/live/etc.?, or -Just straight-up flee somewhere with me and help work stuff out together? Weird scary idea, sure, but… whatever I guess. Not as scary to me as going it alone, I think maybe. May be able to help financially, even. Probably ridiculous to even think any of this but it’s a nice dream to just hop on a bus/plane/silt strider and piss off with somecritter to greener pastures 🤷 …Presumably flipping every single bird at where we came from. If not that, some advice on how much things even cost could be really useful. What does it cost to move these days? In time and US Dollars, particularly. And phone calls. Those are terrifying. Anyway Idunno what kind of budget to expect beyond single, discrete things. $100-350 bus fare to Minneapolis, $150-400 air fare depending on when. $60ish per night for a cheap hotel room near here, plus a $100-200(?) deposit I may not get back that apparently isn’t mentioned very upfrontly. Those I can just look up but getting a full mental picture of like, a 25-hour bus trip including food/drinks, the bus fare itself, stuff I’ve not even thought of yet…??? I’d prefer to fly if I can, but then maybe I need a hotel somewhere because of a cancelled flight, and either spend twice as much on the ticket or have to find somewhere to stay for a bit over two weeks, and cab fare to get to the hotel if I need one (or more!), and… ugh! PS: Sorry this is all really weird and maybe creepy. I’m really weird so maybe it’s not unfair to be upfront about that 😅 but also I’m “a little” unsettled by this mess so I’m just kinda blurting things out hoping something makes sense and maybe helps :- *“Decent” in terms of interpersonal respect and whatnot, not like… “not weird” or something. Certainly not the video game, that’s Descent. Update 27th March, 03:36 CDT/08:36 UTC Just gonna talk to myself for a sec, I guess. Probably nocritter else up at this hour. 😓 Welcome to my diary! Or rather, you now are my diary. Congrats! It’s an odd role. So, every day’s a hell of a trip, and not a fun one. Hours of bad followed by struggle. Just now finally got around to doing some work. Bets on whether I make it? 🤷 Helps to talk…don’t wanna drag anycritter down 🤷 Bleegh. Anyway, turns out stuff is big and space for packing stuff is not. Gotta figure out how much I can handle carting around, maybe see if I can find (and get) my carry-on luggage-thingle. Easiest just to cram what I can into a backpack and big-luggage I guess. Already have a couple of each in here. Was using them as catchalls <.< What goes, what stays… ugh. Very ugh. Triple hyper ugh! And the checked luggage fees… damn. Hurts being alone, in every way. Chatting yesterdayish was nice, just sad and quiet now. Am just crying out loud I guess 🤷 Could still really use: 1. Somewhere to stay: for a week or a day (or until mid-next month when air fare’s better, but who’s wishing for miracles? Oh, it’s me.) 2. Somewhere to go: could be somecritter’s weird wiggly wroommate 🤷 Else maybe advice on where to look for an apartment. Idunno if “cheap and walkable” is a thing that exists but Idunno how the hell I’m gonna be able to get around 🤷 Currently just assuming I’m going to Minneapolis. No freaking clue what to do after that beyond looking for a box to hide in and snatching up like, a bowl and something cheap and edible to put into it. … What a ridiculous “princess experiences real life” movie I’ve got going on here 🤦‍♀️ Anyone want a weird ugly pet to take care of 😅 3. Maybe even just some company? At this point even a voice call sounds great. Fair warning: might just cry the whole time. Am already doing that, in fact. 4. I still wish somecritter would just come rescue me but I totally didn’t say that 'cause it’s scary I guess 🤷 😶‍🌫️ Will even accept cis people! Only asked here because I’m a little bit familiar around here and can’t bring myself to ask anywhere else. Also, how does one get, say, a bunch of groceries from a shop to a home without a car to store it in? Just haul a bag or two at a time, make multiple trips if needed? Seems like that’d get unwieldy and dangerous really fast, even with like, only two bags but there are cans in there so they can’t both be in one hand so like… 🙀 Kindof a shower thought I guess. Still hoping to get one of those today. 💡 Oyeah, maybe use the rolly luggage thingle. Okay, it’s been like an hour and a half just… rambling another wall of crap. I hope somecritter can like, study all’ this or something. Maybe I can play a part in advancing Brokenology (scientific study of broken things).

Help? - Pawb.Social

Heyuh, any hot tips on how I can get the hell out of this abuse house? BioParents have decided that one “no” is far too many and they’ve decided to try to break into my room. They’re yelling a bunch of bullshit and telling me to get out but also they’re trying to work out how to break into my room?! I’m in rural northeastern Oklahoma; I’ve got a bit of money (assuming they don’t rob me of that somehow) but no real means of supporting myself because I’m autistic and agoraphobic in the middle of nowhere, relying on them for everything. I’ve finally got just a little bit of help (some medications at least, nothing fancy) and it’s just too little too late I guess. tl;dr: BioParents threatening, bullying me. Need some kind of lasting escape, need help creating my own life if such thing is possible. Need to never be here again.

Wiggling - Pawb.Social

Hi, shower thought time. Are we wiggly? Do we have an official wiggle, or wiggle style? I like to wiggles enbily, to demonstrate but Idunno if any-enby-critter else wiggles at all, let alone whether we’ve got a traditional/official/typical style of wiggle 🤔 Also, same question but for everything else. Share your favourite wiggles! Discuss the traditional enby wiggles, trans wiggles, weird wigglycritter wiggles… I’ll even accept wriggles as well :3 Maybe wobbles too. Case-by-case, that one. Late warning: this post is entirely 100% goofness :P

Double-hatching - Pawb.Social

Firstly, buuuuump! hehehehehehehe Secondly, so, my trip to enbyness has taken a bit of a circuitous route, right? It took ages to realize that, hey, y’know… maybe I don’t have to be a guy. I can be a girl! Yaaay! Finally free! So I hatched and be’d a girl for a while (… where did the past decade go, please help me get it back). Well, I kindof always expected I’d end up creeping enby-ward at least a bit but recentlish I got to having some feels and it’s been getting to the point where I’m occasionally getting bits of a second dose of that hatchy euphoria. Turns out, I can wear through the gender hangups and start to just be me, right? So, double-yay! Kinda feels like I’m cheating, honestly 😅 Most people only get to hatch zero times, and even lucky trans-critters mostly only get to hatch once. So here I am, delightedly double-dipping discovery, digging into my 'dentity and hoping maybe somecritter around here has a story to share :3 That or I’m just yapping into the void. Even still, maybe I can fan the lingering enbers (harharhar, see what I did there? :D ) of this community! Also any neat tricks for finding/committing to names/colour schemes/avatars would be nice :3 Actually I should probably just have another poke at making an avatar and just go for it but eep >.<; Triple-eep at making a top-level post 🙀

Lemmy version update? - Pawb.Social

Any chance we’ll get one of the newer Lemmy versions? We’re a couple versions behind and the bugged-up comments are kinda annoying. Dunno if an update schedule or something is mentioned anywhere.