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Disqordia will shut down on April 30th, 2023

It's not easy to announce this. I've worked hard on this space, and my work has resulted in a ton of new features for both Pleroma and Akkoma that I'm proud of, and our users have gone to create a lot of amazing projects and instances with the safe space we offered them in the face of hostility outside this instance.

But it's taken a massive toll on my mental health and I've lost the heart for running this space. I've had to hide on alts to stay out of drama and people's obsession with me, and mere proximity to me has been enough for my friends to be harassed or smeared as well.

We've endured a ton of false smear campaigns, and while I've tried my best to combat them and show that our users are a diverse group of amazing leftists, those smear campaigns from people like emilis, welshpixie, twinkle_mouse, monads, etc have been effective at making people believe the worst in us.

I know I haven't been perfect as an admin, sometimes in fact I've been downright toxic and I own up to that and am sorry for anyone who's been hurt by me. But I'm hurt and stressed constantly from this space, and the only way to heal that is to remove myself and get on with my life. I've tried not posting and being more just background admin support and people still find ways to hate me and pull me into stressful drama, and I can't do it anymore.

I wish everyone luck and I hope to stay in touch. The forums and the fedi instance will be taken down and all data will be deleted at that time, but we'll still keep the Discord server for those who want to keep in touch.

Thank you for everything

This space was so important to us.

We rejoined fedi coming straight out of the most difficult and traumatic period of our life, and even through all the huge amounts of aggression against our community--the blatant lies and smear campaigns, the attacks from both fascists and people who should have been our goddamn comrades--even through all that it was so healing to have this little community.

I met so many great people all over the world, including someone I feel deeply in love with, even if it didn't work out. I've made friends here which is not something I've ever had an easy time doing. I was inspired here by all these wonderful autistic trans people to create art that centers us and our fucked up traumagirl society.

To my users, I'm overjoyed that I could be a part of maintaining and building this space where trans and queer people on many continents could enrich each others' lives the way you all have. You're wonderful, all of our users current and former except fulcrum. I'm sorry we couldn't maintain this space for you longer. I'm sorry you were repeatedly dragged into our drama and cut off from your friends just by association with disqordia. But I appreciate everyone who stayed here anyway even despite being so embattled.

To my fellow admins, I know sometimes we fought, sometimes a lot, and some issues we are maybe diametrically opposed on and could never have been a lasting collective. Often times I questioned if y'all even like me or want me around. But I still really appreciated you both and valued the hard discussions and hard decisions we had to make together as much as they were painful to deal with. The best of times were when we all stood united, us against the world, no matter what they threw at us.

eris, you are a really good community builder and I really respect you so much even when we disagreed. arcana, you are one of the most interesting and unique people I think I've ever met, which is something I value highly. I hope we will always be friends, and if I can ever help either of you with anything you can contact me anytime.

To our haters and the people who caused so much hardship for my friend because your little cliques and social capital and purity culture were more important to you than trans women: die.

I don't plan to leave fedi. I'm weighing the options of starting my own instance versus saying fuck being an admin. Because being an admin really sucks. If I do I will keep it small, even single user unless anyone really wants to be on an instance I run. But I doubt I'll ever find any place that feels so much like home as disqordia dot space.

thank you eris, arcana, mia, lilith, sparrow, skyler, eva, psi, leo, other leo, chjara, nemesis, amy, apophis, emmy, fall, jade, aster, sal, celeste, luna, claudia, all my xenofemme sisters, and just so many more I never had the chance to know better.

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