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Kimdracula Jul 30, 2024

Everyone moves on, except me

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22980312

Everyone moves on, except me - sh.itjust.works

I’m sure by now all my “friends” from childhood are either married, with kids, even divorced or probably a few of them in prison or six feet under. Yet I’m still here, living with my mother, sexless, without a job, without studies, etc… I gave up the moment I realized how much my life sucked and how miserable I was even when I had a job, or when I went to the gym. Nothing changed, still never got laid, never got real friends, people still treated me like crap or like I’m a ghost. Any “flame” or desire I had to do anything had died. I’m sure some of you think this is a request of help or something, is not. I’m not trying to get your sympathy. I’m just saying that my life is worthlessb and there’s nothing I can do or I will do about it. “Why you post this?” Because I can, that’s it. I’m well aware that I’m defective, no women want a dude this weak but this is me, I can’t erase myself, becoming someone else would kill me, i see how men that try to get attention dress, act and the things they archive for it… It disgust me. That’s not me. And no, I’m not a good person, I know. But there’s worse people out there with families and success, so I don’t think that’s mandatory to have a more “generic” successful life. I’m going back to sleep, sometimes I wish I wouldn’t wake up anymore. (This is about me, not you, there’s no reason you should get mad at me, think about it before you comment).

Kimdracula Jul 28, 2024

Seriously, fuck summer.

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22885102

Seriously, fuck summer. - sh.itjust.works

35 degrees and it’s just the beginning. I can’t understand how anyone can be outside by their own will like this (unless you’re forced to work in those conditions, construction workers and similar).

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Kimdracula Jul 27, 2024

Do you think that kid at Trump's rally forgot to take into account the Coriolis effect?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22860033

Kimdracula Jul 26, 2024

When you realize that your existence is pointless

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22808920

When you realize that your existence is pointless - sh.itjust.works

Like, why am I here? For over 15 years now I feel like my life has lost any direction, and this years things had gotten only worse. I could get used to have zero friends and social life, and accepted the fact that I’ll remain eternally invisible to women, call it incel behaviour idgaf, I know women don’t want weak people like me, but that’s me, I won’t change, that’s my nature, my soul… Hell I realised that I couldn’t ever leave my mom’s home because I know I couldn’t live alone… But now also being unemployed for almost a year now, after leaving my abusive, underpaid job full of bullies and tyrannic boss. Why my life had to end like this? I’m not a good person, I’m aware but I’ve seen awful people with money, women, married and kids, car, with their own house… And I can’t get a single thing? If I going to suffer like this until I get old and truly completely alone and homeless I’m better dying of a heart attack now. Please, don’t give me advice (oh you need to fight, you make your own life worth it, self fulfilling prophecy) I’ve heard all that before and it won’t help me. I just needed to get this thing out of me, my “real” life is over. And please don’t try to be a bully here. My comment is about my life, it shouldn’t bother you in any way.

Kimdracula Jul 25, 2024

What's the latest stuff you've bought that you almost instantly regretted buying?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22756591

What's the latest stuff you've bought that you almost instantly regretted buying? - sh.itjust.works

Moi? A cheap acoustic guitar from Amazon… That’s what happens when you’re unemployed, you waste that little money you have… I can’t even play it, I though it would be easy to at least pretend to play it but nope, even those “easy to play songs” on YouTube are impossible for me and I’m negated in learning chords, now is a pretty dust collector that I want to destroy. Also I guess cyberpunk 2077. That game isn’t what it promised to be.

Kimdracula Jul 24, 2024

When you have nothing to say

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22698800

When you have nothing to say - sh.itjust.works

I’m sure you had been in this situation. A dinner with some family friends, around a big table, maybe at home or a restaurant. Everyone’s talking about their lives, their kids, gossip, maybe certain neighbours are divorcing, cheating is everything, how expensive is everything, etc. And then your family friend, gay uncle or whatever asks you how are you doing “it’s being years since I’ve see you” And you’re like: I’m fine thanks 😓 They ask you stuff, like when are you going to get a gf, still don’t have a job or whatever… And you awkwardly try to cut short the conversion or fake going to the bathroom… That’s me most of the time, my life is nothing, empty, I have nothing to report and I don’t wanna change just to look make better impression. I don’t wanna “evolve”. That’s why I avoid every invitation from now. Is usually my mom with the neighbours anyways, since I don’t have friends and I don’t like them.

Kimdracula Jul 23, 2024

What fast food chain does the best burgers in your country?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22657349

What fast food chain does the best burgers in your country? - sh.itjust.works

Burger King here.

Kimdracula Jul 22, 2024

What's the best racing game of ALL TIME?

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22621791

What's the best racing game of ALL TIME? - sh.itjust.works

My pick: Either Need for Speed Most Wanted (2005) or Forza Horizon 1.

Kimdracula Jul 22, 2024

One of the signs that you're getting old is when you stop giving AF about being "in good shape"

https://sh.itjust.works/post/22605233

One of the signs that you're getting old is when you stop giving AF about being "in good shape" - sh.itjust.works

In my teen years and 20s I was a skinny dude, broom legs and arms and flat torso, I’m also very tall for a latino so made it more noticeable. But now that I’m on my mid 30s and that anything that I drink or eat is getting harder to “digest” I’m now overweight, still skinny limbs but with a protruding belly, like majority of Latinos here (we don’t believe in diets) and I don’t care anymore. I was worried about my look as a kid but then realised that I wasn’t going to do anything with it, I’m not a model or role model for anything, unfortunately I will not be able to have my own family and I’m hoping to have a short lifespan so my health isn’t something that I care that much, don’t give a shit about my life tbh. There’s a certain sensation of solace with that realisation accompanied by depression, then pain, but hey, life sucks after all, took me 30 years to get there.