Hey sweet ones. A Bank Holiday self-observation:
I'm still at that stage of transition where a leering man produces at least some gender euphoria in me
I mean sure, ogling my chest does mean you could be an entitled creep, a misogynist, predatory and even a potential threat. And you may be a distinctly unappealing specimen. But you like? π
Mansplaining on the other hand just insults my intelligence. My view of you being in any position to do that has not changed with transition. No gender dysphoria, just irritation.. and I'm liable to get scratchy
Mentioning no names, of course π
Edit just under an hour later - a penny dropped. The culprit was Spanish. Delayed gender euphoria: a Spanish guy treated me like a woman and was trying to be nice. Not just some English guy who thinks women are hard of thinking. Gender euphoria!
All ridiculous of course. We box people for no good reason. Humans are ridiculous. I am ridiculous. Ah well, sorry probably nice, probably misogynist, Spanish guy. Buenos Dias π€·ββοΈπ
I'm pretty sure my boobs grew some more yesterday, just out of spite π³οΈββ§οΈ
Evening sweet fairy folk π§ββοΈ
Had a busy but rewarding day, ending with a zoom trans voice symposium that involved us being broken down into smaller groups for practise sessions. It was kinda useful, but mostly we just socialised as my group of four were absolutely lovely peeps
I'm calling it a day now as I wish to rest on my laurels. You see, I was seriously flattered in two areas that are important to me.. and I am afraid I'm a total flattery fiend when it's well targeted π
First, there was a consensus that with no changes, lessons or practise, my voice was already close to fem. Indeed, and I quote, 'soft, gentle, natural, smooth, rhythmic and.. mellifluous'. I'll take that and I refuse to hide my pleasure π. Then, someone spotted a piece of my art that I'd been using as a profile pic and asked about it, so I sent them a full res version and another piece. To quote again 'These are fucking incredible!', while shaking their head in disbelief and revealing that they were a pro illustrator. I took that too! π
I love my trans family. They are all so very, very lovely ππ₯°
Nite nite π
This is the proper way to descend stairs.
The side of me that shapeshifts is, as a
#trans person, life giving. And that's not a nihilistic or opportunistic thing. It's a dose of chaos magic that transcends prison walls when met, internal or external (and there's a number facing us all), on the journey towards self. Every transformation is the real me. And that epitomises the human condition. A fossilised state is not the real you either. You're a unique, unfolding journey. It's just that we have no alternative ππ³οΈββ§οΈ
#Nimona
#transfem